Disappointed!!! Sigh!!!!

I wonder why people can just looked at present but forget the entire past that they have gone through at times.....

It always rip my piece of heart off and i have nothing to say. Despite what someone else have done for them in the past is like something that is a must that the person have to do it for!! Really Fuck themselves Up!!!

I rarely use harsh words but the feeling is Sucks and only bother to asked about the people that they get benefit from and got chance of getting benefit from!

Mum and dad, i will always love you two forever! I will love you with all i have and Stand up for myself!

I will always remember what mum and dad told me and i will try to be stronger! I very sad now. Despite my friends see my laughter.

I really Hate People that take advantage of the others!!! Just Go Far Away From My Family!!! Not even my Sister!!! To Those People!!!!

My Baby masuk kilang!!!

I arrived at the Ampang train station about 5.15 p.m. I went to the car park to pick my baby up!

As i start the engine! Baby start to make weird sound! Normally baby very good nice sound! Today it make a very very super funny and annoying sound!!!

I have no choice but to drive home safely. As i drive baby home!! i pray so hard that make sure baby can reach the house!

Thank God smooth driving and nothing much happen..... Just the car a bit up tight that all.

Come home, called AAM to tow the car to William Ko Ko workshop to fix Baby!

I going to Miss Baby this Few days!!! Lucky that day i shower for baby already!!! hahaha!!!!!

Income Tax!

Please send in your income tax form by tomorrow.!

Yesterday night quite funny!! I was actually trying to access the Income Tax website. The Inland Revenue Board! So much traffic that the site was having some problem loading it!

Ended up cannot do it! So i continue chatting with some of my friends!

Asking them what are they doing! out of Ten person, nine person answer me INCOME TAX for their parents.

Normally last time what my parents do is they would not allow me to touch all the folder! But now they are asking me to fill up the E-filing for them.!!!

But to bad the web page so cacated!!! Then i woke up this morning sent my Mum to Pandan Indah to the IRB department and asked them to do straight away! Faster and quicker!

Anyway is fun to see the younger generation helping their parents to filled up the E-Filing!!!

My verse my words!!!

I want to Go to a better place
To be there right now,
To be full of securities and guardian angels,
Listening to the angel voices,
Outside the mellow windows.
Touching the silky cloth,
I feel my body tender towards it,
Woods and Headboard,
Closing my lazy sunshine
Bringing far across the sea,
To forget about reality,
To see only purity and peacefulness,
Forget about you.

Heartbroken,
Nothing better than to sleep,
To forget that you are gone,
To forget your lies,
Forget the way,
You told me,
You never loved me,
Forget the way,
You looked at me,
When you left me,
I want to forget,
I want to leave this world,
Close my eyes,
Fall to sleep to stop the heart,
From beating.

I block my ears,
From hearing the sounds,
Like your voice,
Like when you sing to me,
Those lovely songs,
They sounded to tender,
Now they kill me,
They hurt me,
I don’t want to hear anything,
Don’t want to hear the waves,
Hitting against the sand,
Don’t want to hear the birds,
Chirping outside the windows.
Don’t want to see you,
Don’t want anything,
That has to do with you,
I want to block away,
The world to stop the pain,
In my heart.
I want my heart to stop thinking about those,
But to Continue Heal,
From your hurtful words,
And just i know you as friend!

Very Busy Week!!

Sunday begins with a Sunday Blues instead. Who on earth young adults will wake up early in the morning you tell me!!! The person is me! Fine! Waking up early in the morning just to get set for 'Mesra Malaysia' Course Conduct by Miss Ong. As early as 7.30 a.m.

Despite the fact that I have to give up my Morning Dim Sum with my Ah Po.!!! So sad that I turn her down! Just because MESRA MALAYSIA!!!

In class was fun because I was in the same group with Claire, Tarrol, and Kelvin! We are in a Team that make the class a live.

To be honest with you the class is going to be so boring if no one make any noise.

Coming yesterday i was too tired to blog. So tired until have fever! weather changes.

Today have to wake up even earlier then usual because timing half hanging! Sitting in the car for more than 1 hour just listening to music and draw my eye! haha!!

Come back in the Noon went to take my shower and then go ZZZzzzz..... But still manage to call Kucing!

Talk to her and got to know that she is sick as well!!! Bet she give me the fever!! always breath on the phone that why lor!!!!!!

Miss you Mel!! So so much!! But quite busy lately!!!! Sorry yea!!! No matter how busy call you at least 3 times a week okie?? hahah!!! Miss you always!!! My timmie jie as well!!!

Tiring but Fun!!!

A hectic day in the morning till the evening. I woke up this morning about 7.30 and get ready by the time is 8 a.m sharp. I have to leave the house then. Surprisingly mum was early. She said she wants to go back to office to finish up some work as well. Cause Japanese Desk. So have to meet the customer needs. They want the service. Haha!!! Get on the car drive straight to the train station and then get on board with mummy.

Upon arrival in the class. I was late for about 10 minutes or so. Cause is Saturday morning. I don't usually wake up that early. Earliest 10.

Surprise me, most of them were already in the class. Left Kelvin and Tarrol and me . Thank goodness Kelvin and Tarrol came later. Haha!!!

In the class, 9 .30a.m and is still very early to me. Not so active and Miss Ong already start to asked me question. I just told her that I need some time to get started with things and just hang on. Cause is still very early.

Soon not long later it was break time. Tarrol and Kelvin came not long after i arrive. I sat with Claire today and both the boys sat the row behind of us. Very nice grouping cause today require us to discuss lots of stuff and our group discussion did a very good job. Writing it simple and and not much elaboration.

Continue to attend class. Finish at 4.30 pm sharp..... I rang the bell!!! so everyone go home!!! Yes!!!

Coming home i realize i have fever. So Paracetamol will help!!! haha!!! so okie now!!!

Eat Prawn!!! Daddy cook for me!!! Wink!! Love you papa!!! i love you very much papa!!! You are the best Papa that i will ever get!!! No one will know how much i love you and mum!!! Although sometimes I am rude but deep down I will not let anyone whoever what so ever people to Hurt anyone of you.

So tire now!!! Have to go ZZZZzzzzzz~~~~~ hahaaha!!! Too tired!!! Tomorrow also like this!!! so tiring!!!!

Food!

Sorry for the late blog today. Hahaha. Yesterday was a very good outing with Timmie to Klang! We manage to meet up with Oyster and have a good time. After so long of me being single yesterday i eat so much and happy eating. Klang got very nice Food.

We went to see Oyster's father and mum. His dad just got stroke and is very much recovering now. So happen his mum fall sick yesterday as well. Is just a minor one. Fever.

He drove his car carrying us around Klang and showing us Klang People lifestyle. Very much fascinated. If I become a Tour Guide I will try my best bringing my customer to Klang to Eat!!! ahaha!!! A Lot of nice food and I continue eating till Oyster pack for us to take back. Hahaha!!! Funny Person...... Well Oyster, thanks so much for entertaining the two of us! hahaha!!!!

Both of us left Klang about almost 6 in the evening. It took us one hour to get to KL. I reach home about 8.30 p.m.

Beside eating, i manage to get a tube top from F.O.S and my mum say is very nice. haha!! Imagine RM 12. Save money again.!!!! Managed to get donut from big apple and then came home. So many things. hahaha!!!

Its been a very long time I never have this kind of life. Want to go JUST take the bag and go. Just inform my parents and that all i have to do.......

Well tonight having Yum Cha Session with Ling Hopefully.

I am Happy then ever before. This is Me and this is My life..... Only my parents have the right to control me and no one else.

Next week Looking forward to meet up friends and Sunday can go out with Po po to Shopping. Yes!!! Bring Po po go shopping for dinner clothes. hahahaah!!! Cannot wait to go Singapore in JUNE!!!! Meeting sister Cheryl and brother Kelvin. He is getting Married!!!That all for now!!!

Fated!

Hmmm....... I arrived to class earlier then usual. No one arrive yet. So Ms. Ong asked me to Chit Chat.... Ok. Talk talk talk to her i just got to find out that my name was not submitted to the board for exam. I was quite sad. I did not have any mood onwards then.

Add on to that is Mr. Pau Class. The chinese speaking lecturer that teach flora. His english is very funny.

Then it was a good news for the college that they obtain 100% passes for the exam.

We were then asked to go out of the class for a moment because the students wants to take pictures using that class.

So i went out like the others do. Standing in front of CH and i asked him can he offer me a ride home. There comes a very bad news. CH then told me one of his uncle have cancer and is the final stage. Not only that. lately he said that there is a few of the friends and relative that his family knows died of cancer.

He say he will not be able to offer me a ride for a moment being because he will have to send his mum to the hospital to see the Uncle everyday after class.

I would like to pray for Miracles to happen but i think that is only about 1% of chance. Is all fated to be. I guest. God love him and wants him back by his side. That all i can say.

Then coming back to the Name that is not submitted for the exam in August. I think back life is just all about fated at times. Isn't it easier more me just to move on then just sad over that.

Ok. So i did not manage to say goodbye to CH, Shila and Tina. Cause Tarrol and Kelvin walked so so fast that I have to walk the same speed with them. They forget the fact that I wear Kick Kok Shoes and they wear leveled shoes. Anyway...... Kelvin was kind enough to carry my bag in order for me to take out my Blazer.
Sorry CH, SHila and TIna.. Love you all k...

Coming home I give CH a phone call. Well he caught himself in a Traffic Jam! haha!!! I accompanied him on the phone while he stuck there. Just a while. He is sad and i hope he will really have to stay strong.

Then finish calling him, I continue called Timmie and Kuching. Meow... hahaha!!! then she playing game on phone!!! Never finish!!

Timmie and I will most likely to Klang for Bak Ku Teh i guest. Well just do what she always wanted to do.

Anyway.... Till late night yesterday i called Timmie to confirm the plans then i called Mel and finally got through the phone.

Talk not long...... I wanted to sleep..... She love to breath HARD on the phone and then that will make me cannot hear anything. So i told her If Next time my BF want to be ROmantic by whispering imagine me here shout!!! WHAT... i cannot Hear!!! Isn't it Potong Stim!!! hahahaa!!! Teruk Betul Kucing!! But still Love you very much!!! Ngiam I also sayang you k.!!!!

Miss Ya!!!

Yesterday I came home earlier then usual. Cause I walked to station yesterday. Tina accompanied me half way through as she want to buy this particular bread in Chinatown. Normally I will take ride from CH back to the train station in Sentul. Easier no need walk so much. wink!

Came home then i decided to scroll through my phonebook in the phone. I realize i haven been calling some of my close friends for a very long time. Especially Rachel Lian! Miss her much as we used to chilled out at the uncle Chee Cheong Fun Stall near ATC back then. As I dialed the number it reminds me a lot of the sweet memories that i have in that college then with my college mate. I think in that college i actually found friends. Crazy and nice friends to hang out with!!!

Calling her and we talked about 32 minutes on phone and a lot to catch up with her. As usual like the siew lai lai!!! hahaha!!! I am happy for her cause the Bf love her very much and she found happiness. One of those friends that have other races BF. Wink!! We talk so much that also cannot finish! As usual!!

As i continue to scroll the phone after finish talking to Rachel, I continue to call this friend of mine that i have not seen for two years and i gave her a call. Another friend that i have not talk to for so so long. Wonder if we meet will we have full stop?? still Wondering.!! That it!! She is Meedheena!! Indian girl!! Clicks very much!! and speak english with Chinese Accent!! I miss her so so much. I have been trying so hard to reach out to her but i could not. Many did not know her number and finally Sheetal has the number. Thanks Sheetal!! Ohh..The Miss Doshi!!!

Soon til about night, i called Timmie talk some more..... hahahahaha!!!! till about 12.55 a.m. then i call Kucing!!! see the thing here is Mel and I have no ending conversation!!! Well we were talking about Condoms yesterday!!! hahaha!!! Cause her uncle's company produce condom for export market!!! and then we talk about what Dai Fu we wear!!! so happen i was wearing my Calvin Klein Dai Fu!! and Mel said she wear Kiss My Bottom Dai Fu!! With Pictures around it!!! Mel that look Hot on you!!!

Anyway!!! I really have good conversation with you everyday!!! Wonder what else we will talk about!!!hahahaha~~~~

Only God KNows~~~ hahaha Love you God that gave me Strength to Stand Up Again!!! The world is Bigger than what i Used to See back then!!!!

Something Good!!

Since Monday night I have been sleeping early. Well before my last minute of my eye closing i still have the urge to ring Mel but she was eating 2 packed maggi Noodles. So I divert!!! I ring B just to tell myself you have to go to bed after this goodnight call.

I did not want to ring B but just for myself to get to bed is my bad habit of calling someone. So i just give B a 30 second Call!! Wink!!

I went to college yesterday and there got no lecturer so the students just brush up their own work that yet to be done. Then meet everyone as i arrived. See CH, Shila, Tina, and Wan Ling. Shila was asking me about the work that i have presented last week. We sat at the one front corner of the class.

As then I said something is missing yesterday before I went to Bed. Then CH was like saying you won't die just because one day not talking to Mel!! Hahaha!!! I think that is the whole thing that missed out on Monday night. CH was like saying is good for me to get a very good sleep! hahaha!!!!don't think so!!! I think i would prefer myself to talk on phone!!! That is my Best Hobby of all!!

I was so tired because of arranging the SKM folder that have to be hand in by the month of June i guest not sure.

Then till the night comes .... i settle some stuff with B and just could not get what I want till now! Too conservative!! cannot OOOhh!!!! hahaha!!!! I just need to be free like how I am now and I have not regret what I have done.That is one thing that this person have to get it straight! One Year Later only i know this Person Tak Boleh Jadi Coffee Saya!!! Susah Betul Jalan Itu!!!!

Okie Next Target!!! Hahaha!!! Where got want target now!! I think now i want to have in contact with my old friends. That i miss them lots actually. Some i haven seen them for almost 2 years..... That is Gheez!!!!

Do you agree that Blogging only can be done for making money!!! To me I don't think so!!! Is a summary of your Daily Life!!!

Tell you more Soon!!!

Some People.......

Just recently I think to myself, some people always do what they think is right and turn out to be wrong.

Just get very annoyed when it is the time for some stuff to happen but it did not happen and when the time is up the doors for it is totally close. This is something that I experience it myself.

Then when everything stop ok. I have make myself clear enough and the bugs just buzzing my ear for no reason. Why have to be like that arg???

No idea.

This type of people is normally those Mel and me called it Cari Pasal Sendiri.

Before leaving to class lots of thoughts running through my mind even before i sleep every night. Then normally my routine is to call my Sayang Mel then talk talk talk~~~ Always the case got coma no ending. The conversation between me and Mel is always anything and everything from Maggi Noodles to Sneaker and Bra! G-Strings!! Oppss.... Mel Eat Maggi Noodles at 11 p.m yesterday imagine if i am the one that eat the TWO packet of Noodles.

Hey Mel still so Fit and Slim!!! Wonder Why?? She eat double of my portion. I grew fatter she grew thinner.

I always wonder why some people out there just find it difficult to be happy. To me, Sadness is always leading you to have more Sad Memories in life.... Then asked myself again whether i want happy memories or sad memories. We choose to live and we control out mind and feelings.

Making life simple and treasure happiness that is something that i always wanted to do and i am doing it now.

Being Single!! Nothing Too Bad!!! Flirting will then come in to Action!!!

My sayang foong ling say...... we need them to manja we go to them when we need out space we can just brush off a side...... No commitment needed.

I am enjoying very much my single life and I am enjoying the life now. Is time for me to catch up with all my Old Old Friends that have been no time for.

San please called me when you Free!! You are busier then the CEO of the company!!!

New Fresh Look!!!

My lovely new look done by Etro Hair Stylist!! he is the hairstylist I used to go besides Gary in Fix Salon. How do i Look!!!

I did not curl my hair... Is natural! Etro just put some hair stuff to make it nicer that all. The Hairstyle he do for me. I sit there like QUEEN!! Hahahaa!!!

Okie Now my hair is done i have to get my ass down to do the thesis that is the last script to be completed. Sigh!!!!

Huh Finally Done!!

The thesis that i have been complaining so much is finally done. Just one more script to go. Then everything is finish. I cannot believe it that i can finish the whole bundle of thesis just within three days. I was expected to be rushing on Monday. But then well is all good that i have finish what i am suppose to do. Then i can have a good rest tomorrow and then go to Museum to have some materials . Having my rest time now!!

Still Awake!!

Sigh.... Still Awake as usual..... night always young for us City People!! haha!! Tak Malam Tak Jadi Rasanya!!!

I don't know why nowadays i just have to call Kucing!! Is just nice talking to her. How i wish our conversation yang hanya ada koma tiada Full Stop!!! Well Kucing here comes our Bahasa Rojak!! I really miss those days in class i speak to you Bahasa. I just felt so natural that i speak Bahasa to you.....

Well Is late now but i am not really sleepy yet!! Just thinking of some certain things that make me missed my old college very much!

Is not that i don't like my current college

but is Just different than what i used to be. With my friends that i really really get connected with heart. Is rare to get friends like that nowadays.

Still listening to westlife now!!! haha!! and some other artist as well..

I just Prayed real hard that whatever i do now it will lead me some where in future....

Good night..... have to go now....

The PUDU Day!!!

I wake up about 11.30 in the morning today and then went straight to clean up and get ready to go dentist appointment In Pudu!!

Today i change my braces colour to Green! My Fav. One of them!!! But the best is still Light Purple! is nice soft and charming. Wink!!!

After getting that dentist part done we went all the way to Pudu Big Wet Market to get some stuff to cook tonight.

In Pudu Market you will really see the word call muhibah or perpaduan! We went to this Malay stall to get some Serai and Curry powder and then we gave her the money, So happen my mum got no small change we just run out of change and we have a RM100 note in side. the price of the goods is about 28 ringgit if i am not wrong. We hand over the note and guest what she went across to the Pork Stall to get change. A Malay Lady Wearing Tudung and Baju Kurung.

The Butcher is still chopping the pork half way and take the money and change it for her.

Standing there i don't know to laugh or to clap for her. I then asked her by saying Auntie you really don't mind about the man touching the pork? She replied me this. If i would have mind what his stall sells i don't think i will be having my own car and house today . She also told me she is from Kelantan and came here and live in a small Hut with 7 children then.

She decide to stay loyal to Islam but in order to survive back then she got no choice but to sell and then she also realize one thing which is God Only asked me not to Eat But Never asked me not to See.

This lady owns a Vios Today! But still selling her serai in PUDU market to bring up all the 7 children together with her Husband!.

This is what i Call Mind your Own Business!!! and also Care for what you need.

Ohh Yea.!!! Her Mathematic so good! No calculator Needed!! we bought almost 20 packet of stuff!!!

Eye Opening for once in PUDU market! and they are very friendly to the Pork Sellers.

Assignment Day!

For once i am doing my Assignment! Wearing CBN t-shirt. The thesis is so much then have to write write so much!!! my job here not suppose to be blogging now... But to boring.... have to rest a bit. Just calling my friends, then chat online with sister and then doing my assignment!!! wah sey!!!!!

Thursday Blues!!!

It started 12 a.m in the morning. Well Mel call and i call her back and then we started talking on phone. Wow now i realize i have someone who is actually something in common with me. Clumsiness. Without us knowing while talking on the phone it was then already 5 a. m in the morning.

Well me and Mel talk about those silly things actually happen in our life starting from high school till college. Remembering the fact that i actually walk and without me knowing i actually knock my center forehead on to the Lamp Post.!! Dong!!! That is what is sound like. I still remember i was in front the Ee Yan Sang Store somewhere nearby central Market. I practically don't see who is in front of me and i just walk and this is what i cause myself. The talk went on...........bla bla bla!!!! Once i looked at the beautiful time it show me 5 in the morning. I told myself well done Pei Yee. You have Class in the morning today and this is what you are doing. Clever Girl.!!!

Today in the morning i slept at 5 and i woke up at 6.45 a.m cause i need to go to class early. Practically 1 hour and forty five minutes sleeps. Then i woke up brush my teeth and clean up myself and wait for mum where i sent her together to the train station.

I took the sharp 8 train to sentul station and CH pick me up in the morning and we went for breakfast. Well when i was standing there, i feel myself floating in the air. hahaha..... i went drowsy and need to sit. CH came about 5 minutes late. Well waited there and is okie.

Great!!! Did not sleep the whole night and have to attend lecture for good of 3 hours By Mr. Paul Ng.!!! Thank God is Paul NG. If would be another lecturer i would have sleep.

It was a total crazy day. Thanks To Mel!!!! But i still love you Kucing. Probably is the instinct in the heart that we connects!!! Yes Mell?? Hahaha!!!!

Hope you have fun in Klang Though!!!!!

That all from Me!!!

If you all want to know what is the Last minute..... Come to me or Mel we will tell you...... hahahahaha!!!!!

In need of Dance Partner.

Hey People i need some help here. Especially guys. If you are shy and dare not to admit in public you want to learn dancing please tell me. I in need of partner. Some times i wonder where all the guys been. Your Height is about 5ft 7 to about maximum 6ft. Too tall cannot. Cause i am only 5ft 5inch. That why.

In dance community in Malaysia Guys cannot be seen. Usually they will come with their girlfriend. Hardly you see guy coming in alone.

Please.... Help the Dance society to balance up the gender.

just leave me a comment i will get back to you. I don't care you straight or not straight. I could not bother so much but now if some guys are able to come in i think is a cool idea.

Imagine you Dance alone even you know how to do it. No fun!!! Cause we the girls need them to lead us!

Thank you.

Welcome.

I have finally ready to take charge of my blog after so long i stop blogging since. Well hopefully this blog will last. I am fine here with my friends company and they are all well.

So much happening to me but just have to be strong and have the courage to carry on life. Is like a Bung Bang Thing suddenly and then you wake up one day and find yourself 20 years old now.

Anyway i really hope i can keep this blog. Wish me luck!