Running In Heels..... and a surprise Reaction!

It was the Orientation Night party 2011 in my university. In the beginning was rough. So rough that I nearly give up and stuff. Kumar he purposely gave me a hard time. Well I can see how Professional he claim to be as he mix the personal and work together. Anyway I was thankful enough to have Siva, Shangkar and Raj to help me out with the system entirely. Kumar came in Very much later to just stand and show his face I suppose. With that I thank Him for letting me know and letting me learn how to run an event without you presents. I don't see anything he have done besides Jing's Harmonica Tuning. Though it can be better but is okie it was good enough for them and the Crew is happy!

After all he has done to me, he can even called me to asked my dad for Discount to purchase Camry. Wow Kumar, you really have the Guts to do this but you know Something Krishna Kumar, you have no Balls to even come and tell me you want it to be over.

Over the time I realize FM people are not that difficult to deal with. They are in fact pretty nice people to deal with in handling stuff. I had sort of much feedback, to my analyze, i think Krishna Kumar, you are having some attitude problem and not other people.

I am fine because I am just 23 and there are a long way more to go.Imagine people, a 33 years old guy..... Behaving in this manner.... Yesterday, you look so immature. You saw me paying the parking, you just went running to your car to avoid me. I wonder How long can you do that. How long would you like to avoid things instead of getting things clear. You are so small.... I use to respect you but now I doubt that is coming from me.......

This is the surprise reaction I have. hey Folks More updates i bet... My interesting Life!!

A reality of what is Semester 4

I slept late last night. Although i told myself not to think about it, but somehow it will think about him when he is not even thinking about me. While I force my self to sleep, I finally sleep soundly. I was waken up by a strange dream. I dream about Casket and everywhere I go is all casket and the feeling is like so weird.

This morning I went to school, I told myself is a brand new day, but somehow i felt strange as i will still look out for him. I know i should not.... Is difficult handle the situation. I am not too sure of what it is but definitely i know I had something for him. I know i should go all way out but is like a road block rather looking at it now.

Suffering feeling but i cannot show much out about myself. Sigh!!!!

Sem3 Ending with Drama!! A whole New Beginning in Sem 4

With Grace of God.... Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu... I smoothly went on to Semester 4.

Thinking back when i was in Semester 3, it was all the beginning in life. All this while I thought I have been living a world of a hell lots of shit. But This semester proof me so wrong. Drama in class in like handling the working society people. Finding your own true, trusted and sincere friend is hardest to find.

Sem 3 is one of the most remarkable semester in my uni life. Learning to know what kind of people to deal with. All sort of character and different level of emotion.

From being just me and my friends, I finally thought I found a person right in my life, Different of 10 years, Different Race, well I accepted him for who he is. Till then things went on funny, and I felt weird about everything. Thank you for the beautiful words and treatment. Now being on my own and i am taking charge of anything i do.

Something i should hold on to is my principles. not dating for another year.... hahaha.... I have failed that mission I suppose! Also in Semester 3, my friendship blew up with my best friend. In a week, I lost two of the important thing in my life.

Instead of being devastated I stood up and be strong and I ain't waiting for anyone no more. Time is running out for me and I know i miss out a lot since high school till now. Is time for me to have something nice for myself and do what I love doing. Today where i stand and be is already hard enough to climb the hill. Come if you want to know me. Go far away if you think of not being sincere.

Today I came to a point where i realize, I am the one take charge of my life and How I draw my own life.

Oprah Winfrey: We live our Desirable Life as There is Nothing To Wait!!

To everyone out there you take charge of your life not anyone else. Loves comes a long when you finally find yourself Because then you will find your complete self!!

Cheers Pei Yee.... You are now on your own. Live the fabulousity life that you deserve and Do make your self Proud and your parents.

Flowing Tears.

I have just came back from Malacca today and I had awesome weekend with my Sister there together with mum and dad of cause.

I have been thinking to myself what I am now. Where am I heading to. What does he want from me. Telling me that he will approve me in FB and all stuff are lies. He never did and Wonder will he remember my name someday.

My heart is badly bash up and Once again I was played out badly in a way.

Kind to think about the logic of it is that why he did not allow me in to his office again. As before he gave me a lot and appreciates me more than like before. As to now I am hurt and I just hope time will just recover me with the strength I have.

Tears are swinging
Sways its way down with grief I hold,
Bleeding of pain fill with my heart of Sorrows,
To see you smile makes all the time great with Pride,
you left me with no answer,
You left me of with no words,
Busy times you have I take it like to Swallow,
As the truth remain surface,
As to be it, I know it of the real thing.

Some how I am smiling...

I miss him bad, but I respect it because of his work. He thinks differently and probably I need to understand the stress a little bit.

Being in a situation like this makes me more freedom and good deal. I can do so much more and achieve what I want in life.

His sentence, and his laughter makes me smile the entire day as I am glad I am able to make him smile!!

hahahaha!!! Miss you more each day!!

Rainforest World Music Festival 2011

I had one of the most brilliant time in RWMF 2011. I was assign to Gina's Team for Gate control. Great team mates and Leader to work with.

In this event, I met people from across the globe and I am actually living a life of my dream when i was young. Those time I remembered how much i want to be part of the organizing team as I felt privilege in it.

Most of my dream I have race to achieve it well. It was one of the Best event I had work with. Being there is Sharon make it better and of cause I talk my heart out to her and glad we can be together for all knowing reasons. haha.

By fate I met 2 girls, wonderful girls, Parvin and Harvin because of them I met Shigan. I understand how much fun time I had.

Back in to the reality of the world, many things came to my mind, and i clearly understand what i really want in my life and who i wanted (as in the quality in a guy) I am not certain with the current one as he is so busy with Jobs, and he is lovely now. At least he speaks to me.

B, Nowadays I hate to talk to people you know, but than is me that makes the different... he laugh...!! hahaha!!!

Your laughter makes me smile so much in my heart you tough man! hahaha!!

Like i would say, I will only live my life for myself as I felt this way makes me happier and not to worried about other things that make me confuse. I think I have fallen from the top of the mountain till the lowest end of my life which my parents have totally no idea what their daughter have gone through in her life.

I am dating a guy ten years older than me. Does the race really matters, or her face that she would like to take care of. If ever I hear that from another mouth that person will just get a good luck from me!! I suppose!!! Mind your own business where yours is neither that good nor better than me!

Somehow as i grow up, I just felt that I had sick and tire of the mindset which I do not like those anymore. How many this and that and Chinese.... I am sorry, chinese have to be modern thinking!!!! The guy now I am dating, he is one of the kind... I miss him so much more by him allowing me the freedom!!!

6 July 2011.. Wednesday!!

I kick-start with Rainforest for this time around of semester break. I have gain many things in semester 3, yet again i lost some of it. Its painful, hurtful, and tearful to my which some people may not even care what i feel and what their action causes the others.

I thought I have let it all away but deep down I hold it tight in my heart. I will be flying to Kuching, Sarawak tomorrow. Without a goodbye and not even a call. It is heartbreaking.

I was speaking to Meryll over facebook, and i just realize what is the 8 years and it is really a long period of time a person to know what is all about. I am not sure how long this heartbreak will take to recover.

I don't even have the mood to go for anything but situation forces me to go. I am not too sure what is going to happen. As far as i know it most likely a positive energy that will be given to me.

If the relationship from the start is rough, what will it takes to makes thing smoother.

I remember your words.

I said this is who I am will you be able to take it. This is what you Said.

I cry easily, you said you will make me laugh
I do have a certain set of Chinese Mind, you said you like chinese mind
I am very clingy, you said you like the way i am and keep it that way
I am modern thinking, you said you like modern way of thinking
You practically convince me to fall for you and you slash my feelings like a piece of toy.

You said you will never raise your voice on me, YES you did....

You fail to keep your promise even from the start. Base on my many years of analysis, you are either messing with the Fire Aries if not you are playing with the most purity things in the world which is Love.

I wonder if your mom knows about what the son did... she will be proud of you. hahaha!!

I somehow miss you, but i would rather blog about it than to call, as I know you are Gaying with your Boss , if not you are busy with your so called JOB.... where all can have rest time but not you!

A day of no calls or msg.!!

Its been a hard day for me to resist myself from thinking about it. Nevertheless the temptation is there.

I am glad to have a group of cousin and friends that supported me all the way and I would learn to take charge tomorrow.

I had a bunch of friends that wanted happiness for me as they know I am like that. I have finally come to an answer that certain things are not meant to be happen due to certain reason when the time is right.

As for now, I am not sure yet. I need to call Siva tomorrow to know how is things. I will need him to know that if he really want me, he needs to come for me.

Stress up with all the callings and rubbish! Taking charge of my life once again is to hold on to it tight and this time around I hope the Grip is stronger than ever before which I do not wish to let it go. I am who I am and if you fall for me... it would be me and not someone else I pretend to be!

Take charge time. Going to bed Now!! Off to Malacca 3 days!!!