Relief!

Yesterday i went off from Office about 12 noon. I went to cash out my pay cheque immediately. Yay....

I did a fantastic shopping spree and i love it. Hmm.....

Many things came out of my mouth yesterday... the words are just spilling every moment. Was talking to my friends. Hahaha....

A lot things i have told a friend of mine. I felt relief. I have seen this person down but not so bad and so long period of time. Tremendous.!!! Hahahha...!! Is sad to see someone in this shape.

We Move on in life all the time and nothing can be done when you are hurt but just allow the time to wash it away.

I cannot see friends in this situation!! Not at all cause i know what it really feels like but then again we have to go through something in order to grow up.

Certain things make me grow so fast!! the emptiness and the hurt i been through really makes me become a stronger person today. I thank to those who did that to me cause i never be so silly anymore..... hahhhahha..!!!!

It was a relief and a big sigh in my heart that i said it all yesterday.....

To my brother mun hong,

Jie is good here,.... you don't worry about me so much. Missed you though and i really love to spend more time with you.... Find me when you are in KL next time.
Study Good K. Make all to be proud of you....!!! Be strong.!

All my Love to you MH....

Jie always...



Pine Gurl,

Pei Yee.

Jesse McCartney- Just So You Know!

"Just So You Know"

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]


p/s: I love this song!! Beautiful!!

Smiling........T__T

Denial is the best way to life at times. We can denied everything but the truth lies within the truth.... Smile!!

Today i think again you know..... why people deny truth at times. And most of the time ended up with still the same answer!! Is it really thrilling to deny the truth? I should try someday.... !! May be is fun who know yea!!

So anyway...... today i have the shortest blog ever you people can read k..... Very short already...... Cannot be any shorter i guest!!!!

Failed to write Summary!!! hahahaha!!!

Bubbly Pine Gurl!!

Pei Yee

~Gracious~

Gracious moment i lead in my life,
where i found the answers a long the road,
Fairy tales that i hear it sound,
Where prince and princess.

With the moment i have,
With the chances i received them,
Upon the knowing of Lord...
Like the shadow that whisper,
through the night that i remember,
Is like a fairy tale......

Believe in what you are,
And trust the heart of yours,
ohh... ohh....... please don't hurt them,
As you hear them closely
they will tell you where you belong...........

Certain things i have done in my life,
Many things are wrong,
People around us come and goes,
As they like a beautiful dream.

There is road to heal the hurt,
Which painful without words,
Like an empty heart
In the darkest night,
Sitting in the corner,
waiting for the glory night.

I can choose to have a change,
when is always never too late,
When the chances are there,
Changes are big different.

Pine Gurl.

Composed by Pei Yee Soo Jaszmynn.

Be alone!

single!! Wow.!!! I did not believe myself staying single for about six months and this shows time flies so fast without me knowing them! (Smile)

After six months now.... I only can tell you guys the summary about how my life been ever since.

I break up on 14 March 2008. I was a bit reluctant then but my hearts tells me that i should let it go some how. Besides he insist on that decision. I accept it with respect. Confusion was running through my mind. I think a lot about what I have done for the relationship and many sacrifices that i have ever make then.

Including losing contact with my friends because of him. Felt kind of stupid now!! (think back) hahaha.... Anyway..... My day, i was expecting it to be really bad and horrible without someone to talk to and someone i so use to calling every moment! Still life move on. Slowly i told myself stop thinking about it and i make myself occupied with work and activities.... that was the moment i move on to a whole new chapter of life. Glad doing so!

Slowly i move on.... to somewhere really far from the word hurt. I grew stronger like never before. Is like hurt this word has never appeared in my life. Consider lucky in a way Mel was there all for me and I make it myself as well. She was the best of friend i ever called to talk about everything and anything that makes me feel so good that I think i really worth more than this!

Day passed day...... my life is a routine of morning going to work and then in the afternoon i will leave for class and for now i Worked four day and one and the half revision in school!

Finally, I realize my life is mine! Why i am being taken over by something! I have make a bunch of good friends my sisters in my Office and the Greatest are my Masters... They make me move on like never before. The smile is nice!!! everyday!! i love it..!!! I bring joy to them! I manage to make it.!

What i have been through i would love to share with my friends that i cared about a lot. I missed those smiles back in Three years... That was very sincere.... Although it did not happen but i still missed those friendship moment that is so true from you. Seeing you in this way doesn't make me feel good at all.

I dare not walk any nearer as a friend because i think you needed space more..!! Standing there i might make the mistake i make last time but at the same time i just want to be the one to you that you can call me like any others....... It makes me shades tears every night in my heart to see my cheerful friend once who makes me laugh when i am down, Tickle me like you always do when you know i am very scare of them and talk rubbish when you know the right time to do it. I MISS THEM!!! I don't want to be the person not there for you when you needed someone to be with! You can call me whenever not a problem at all.

Everything is clear to me now. To meet you and able to see you smile when you see me! That is more than enough. Cause i make you smile! To a dear friend of mine Stay strong!! I know you will. Lets put things in to the past!! Is already happen!! We learn we grow! and we move on!

There is a lot of friends of yours waiting for you to be yourself!

We miss you!! the original and cheeky you!!

You know who you are my friend! I hope you read this! I really hope to see the smile again!

Hey i Can read those okie! hahahhahaa!!!! Is magical! Heavenly Blessed!

Regain yourself and move on! I know is hard but life is more of chapters!! Move on you will feel naturally happier!

Is a matter of time!

Pine Gurl.

Pei Yee.

Nice new day!!

Placing pressure on myself as well!! the workload is so much!!! my head spinning..~~~

Somehow i felt lighter today~~

Now!! I mean!!!

Hey is a fresh day today!! What is new and exciting i really wonder at times......

Yeh Yeh,
Thanks for the support and words you gave me today knowing my emotions from my smile!

You are so brilliant!!! Wonderful yeh yeh!!

Yeh yeh, No worries k.... Mei is doing good and i will take your words.... I won't be like you never take your Father's words geh!!! hahahaha!!!!!

hey Mr Au..!!! The key board meaning we have to create something more k!

Any way that is to my Master!!!!

About me!! Follow the flow of Life that is Brilliant Idea!! I felt better now than just now!!! Probably i turn to a new face of life i guest.....

Motionless Emotions!

gracious moment have come today.

Hahaha!! Sitting in the office now thinking to myself about many things! Why i always have the problem coming back to me over and over again.

I don't know what is the future that brings but i know the feeling is very true. I wonder who wants to be hurt again and again and again..... given the chance i doubt i would want that.

I seriously don't know what is hurt when i got hurt at times. I don't know when do i get hurt either..... the reason is because a lot of hurtful times i have been through hard enough and i find that what i am going through now have become no feeling to me.

My heart get stronger when i get this problem. Somethings i might never get it but thanks but i felt it before. I have been at least once being treated like a queen than never in the entire life. What not!

Seeing the person from far leading a happy life but yet i see confusion in that person but i was being push away far enough.

I might never get the chance but for now i know what is true and not true. I know what is the feeling when you find replacement...... but i promise my self i would never do that no more. is too hard at times to know things in certain aspect of life..... Wonder and mountains of thought flying through my mind now.

As the matter of fact somethings really make me wonder a lot............

Chances that i once let go.... I regret it bad......
I know it would be different if i would be there stronger...... and take that chance.

As for now i am in a mood of feeling bad for myself. I don't know why.....

A person that i cherish have told me doesn't want to get hurt no more but sometimes i wonder what is Hurt..!!!

May be is just the chance i have slip and never be the same again!

Feeling horrible despite there is presentation in the class!!

Just a mixture and blend of feeling over my head here....!!!

Weekends..........

This weekend is not as pleasant like any other week because mum was very mad at both of us. I don't know why. Just the mood Swing.......

First she started screaming at the room we both now stay in and then she has got this very fantastic link topic sense and the conversation ended up in a topic call Friends and Outing..... (How Wonderful) Very Well.

Okie Start of with the ROOM.....
okie.... she starts entering my room and throw the clothes out of my room to the staircase which is very near....... then i saw it, i pick it up and keep it in the room. Dad wanted to shower ....... he then saw the Clothes there again..... there the scream started.

Then..... Carry on with this Bilik Gudang Cleaning going on in my room. I was very frustrated as i take a whole lot of clothes and throw it all on to my bed and what surprise me is that i throw about 75% of my clothed away......

Too Angry already...... At the end i don't know what i have throw away..... better not to know...... then i will pick it up!! hahahaha!!! Now i have new reasons to buy new clothes...... and no more question.!!!

Shopping Spree..!!! Coming!!! Shopping, i am coming.....

Then on Sunday, which means today...... started with the Islam not islam and what not just because my best friend is Muslim!!! Aiyo!!!!! Mother !!!!! Pork is Too tasty!!! Nyiammmm!!!!!!!!!

Than she funny....... in the afternoon after i have clean up the mess at the computer desk........ Just got to know quite dusty!! T__T

What a nice and adventures Weekend!! Landed up no where...... but here in the house!!! hahahahaha!!!

Mother Singing!! Dad accompany her.... Sister watching Football!! (hate that game) and me ....... sitting down here typing my blog.

Fantastic Weekend.

Pine Gurl.

Pei Yee

Moments................Dreams and Soul

Dream,
Where i see you in my Soul,
A place where i lay my thoughts,
A wisdom that I received Upon Him,
Shadows that play in my mind.

Dream,
You are there when i always whisper,
Like a follower that is like Gifted,
Within the mind and creation of beauty,
A land with a Holy spirit of destiny.

Soul,
You are just looking,
Wondering like always,
A place where you can seek inner peace,
Palace of the Mankind Blossom Truth.

Soul,
Destiny you might find,
A winding road that might just be there,
Love and care you always have them,
A piece of soul with more than you can have them.


Composed by Pei Yee Soo

Pine Gurl.

Pei Yee.

I found Myself!

I am not lost..... i have found myself and makes things right for me now. Certain thing is hard to take control of. I just realize that! How bad yea??

I am Glad my prayer answered where i am not confuse anymore. I really thank God i make the decision to Work at least i am occupied with something and never think so much.... if not i surely go crazy.......... Then Mel have to come stay with me and make me feel alright.....

Don't worry to all my friend...... I am okie and everything here is under my control and no problem............

Thank you to each of my wonderful friend i have and i think am bless to have them with me.

My Ta Jie and Yeh Yeh in the office who cares for me and never stop keeping me happy.... I am very thankful for that!!!

To my friends where no matter is a bad time i am in or the most prosperous time yet i know you all are always there for me and always ready to help and listen and i am known as a Chatter Box!!! Yea!!! Anyone........?? The title is up for grab!!! Chatter Queen!!!! Record!!!! 10 Hours On Phone!!!

Trust the Destiny that you want them to lead you to!!! That more about yourself!!


Pine Gurl!!!

Pei Yee

My Two Special Friend!

This poem is dedicated to Miss Susie and Mr Dominic Au. My Masters.......My Ta Jie, and Most of all Yeh Yeh!!!!

Chery bloom by months,
Crystal shine by the sun,
Time we shared,
A moment of memories done,
Bitter or sweet are just fun,
A friend i found,
A treasure i have received,
Upon the bless by God I Belief,
You are the Friend I found in the Cherry Bloom Month.
A friend of one in a Million but I've Found!!!

Composed by Pei Yee Soo.

Pine Gurl.

Pei Yee

In The Mids Of Purity in Mind!

Yesterday was a terrible day for me. It was alright from the time i woke up and to office and then Dinner but not after that......

I wonder where is the true friend that i once know him so well but not now. It was the message that i received from my Jie Mei then immediately i place down the phone i receive a message to switch off my phone due to a person that never want to learn about her mistake and still thinks is so called right Keep on calling me to disturb me. (Annoyed)

I did not answer to phone. Surprisingly this time around i did not do what i use to do back then. I have grown up a lot over the years and the moment and environment forces me to adapt the situation i am in.

I was thinking to myself although Mel console me but is natural to keep thinking to yourself that what did i do to get all this annoying Human call and what not...... The thing is the ex neighbour who get the person not me..... being a friend to him i was in a situation like this. (BIG HUGE SIGH)

Calling the Missed Call total of it about 15 of them..... If i don't know i would thought what emergency is that!!! Kekekee..!!!What a crazy person that is!!! As for i know she took away a friend of mine and now she wants to hurt his friend again..... Come on..... Grow Up Kid..!!! Is over!!! Everything between you and my friend is totally over and what is that to talk about!!! (Such an Idiot)

Things that i think about wasn't about her..... is more about why my friend a person i know and trust can just tell something to a person like that!!! I mean come on!!! Tell someone else i couldn't be bothered but why her..... and some more is about me!! IS THE SITUATION I AM IN NOW NOT HURTFUL ENOUGH THAT YOU IN A MIND OF NO WHERE JUST TELL EVERYTHING!!!!

I don't know where this leads me! All i know is that many things is out of my control.

I am confuse about people around me that i once know them. I am confuse about myself... Why all this where i live my life Fabulously.

Regardless now...... I will emo and Sad in a Fabulous Manner...... but yet i belief God is there to shine His child to a road that she belong to.

Pine Gurl

Pei Yee

At Mid Valley Shopping then CamWhore!!!

In Oh Sushi Restaurant..... The is No more Place in Chilies!!!

I bought that piece of Black Top.

At mid Valley Centre Court


Photograph by Ishmael Ho

Pine Gurl

Pei Yee.

Rainbow Paradise

I wonder in the past without thinking hard
The whistle of the breeze is like the sound of loneliness
The leaves are falling and I'm in such a dilemma
My heart is full of loneliness and darkness.

If I don't care I"ll be happier
Regret is besetting me
Struggling to shake off, only to delay it
There's only empty talks and sighs
I can't forget the memories and free myself from the entanglement
I can't find the direction to the heaven of rainbow
But there's your love
The happiness you bring caresses my wound
The two of us live together till we're old
Soaring in the starry shinning sky
You are by my side

Chai Hong Tian Tang- Will Liu

Is all about me!

Penang the Hilarious Trip!!!!

30th August 2008
-Start the journey at 6 in the morning.
-Meet my aunt at the First North-South Express Toll.
-In total seven cars (28 person Including two Babies in total)
-Sleep through the journey till we reach Ipoh.
-As the matter of fact I only slept about two hours the day before.
-Went to eat the Famous Ipoh Hor Fun and the Tau Geh Chicken!
-Spend about two hours there.
-Journey Continue....... All the way to Penang.......
-Arrive about 2.30 in the afternoon. Weather is hot and We all about ten of us Jump in the pool.Immediately as we check in!
-Went to somewhere near Gurney Drive at night for Dinner and then we eat until about RM350 our table six combine tables.....hahahaha....
-Till late night we all when to a seaside bar nearby and we sat there till about 1 in the morning.

31st August 2008
Despite the fact that is Merdeka but I don't feel the Mood in Penang people unlike the KL people. Okie this is what we did on Independence Celebration:
-Sad to say I was the Last person to be prepared and leave. (Miss Amor Amor)
-When to Lorong Selamat to eat Penang Char Kuey Teow.
-The aunty who fried the Noodle only open at 11 sharp no earlier no later.
-Reach There earlier about 10.30 a.m so have to wait.
-Meanwhile waiting we when to eat Penang Prawn Noodles.... Is also Nice.
-After that we went to the Famous Char Kuey Teow in Penang. Yess...... Damn nice.
-Went to Him Heang for the Biscuit but closed. So went to Ghee Hiang To purchase.
-All together about 200 boxes of Biscuit..... They Lost Count.hahahaha!!!
-After eating so so much when to Kek Lok Si temple.
-walk until the Babies asked to be carried.
-on the way back to the Hotel, All sleep in the Car.!! Very Quiet Moment!!
-Reach Hotel due to the weather we all look for Swimming Pool!
-Swim again!
-At night we went to the food court near our hotel just by walking distant.
-the Figure went up to about RM350 as well.
-Night we all to the Seaside bar.
-Two Bucket of Calsberg

1st September 2008
-Went down for Breakfast for 20 person in the end they also lost count and all of us went in to have breakfast. Wink!
-Check Out
-Went Swimming and Sun Bathing!
-Gone a Little Brown Now!
-Left about 12 sharp.
-Drive using the Ferry to transport us back to Main Land.
-1/3 of the ferry level is fully occupied by our cars.
-Drive all the way back to Ipoh again.
-We eat the curry Chicken Bread there very famous and nice.
-we ordered about nine dish and the Bill Came up to Only RM for 28 person! Very Very Cheap! We have vegetables, Fish, and Pork and some seafood.
-All big eater!
-Continue Journey ...... Went to Tapah Rest House. Buy Fruits..........


*** The Funny thing is when we are on the way back everyone have a different timing of toiet! After The Babies the Adults!!! We are happy as no one got sick in the Trip and nothing happen!! Thank You God for love and Shine and blessed us with a Safe Journey!

Pei Yee.