Blogging Mood!!

Towards the end of the Month of May..... I have the mood of blogging. Silly and does not make sense of feeling. Anyway.... the previous blog i wrote was really bad. as in feeling. Sorrow moments. Gheez..... how can i explain that. I was really upsad over some matters and there is still some inside me here sitting down and waiting for the next fall. Don't know when but soon i guest. Really have got no idea what those all about.

Back in to the reality of my life. Here the story goes. Like a rollercoaster which i have never expect myself in to this trouble. Wonder.... Sometimes whatever he place me through really makes me a stronger person in a way. I have not been very well for the past two weeks as the matter of fact my parents is in overseas, and grandma admitted and me myself was down with some personal problem. Thank God ..... he answered most my prayer and sometimes I really do feel he shelter me with a lot of love and watch me from far apart.

So practically.... for that two weeks..... Travelling will be no.1 in list. Despite not really well have got to travel to see grandma few times. go to school three days and then resting at Dar's place cause i have abdominal pain. Gasteristis. Normal problem for miss sue.

Back in school. everyone asking how i am feeling. and i really feels that they worried for me very much. Tell you guys more soonest..... have to run!! Gareth is in the class!!!

Bye......

Hey May day!!

Friends.... Yea PY is alive very much. too many things is happening and sometimes wonder a lot of those W.H question is all about the 4W and 1H thing.... Is May and is the ending of May! Woo hoo.... The year really rushes by and I am finishing my term 2 and going to term 3 and that is for my first year. I still have another year to complete my Diploma and than pursue in Degree.

Will i be here? Or will i be in somewhere else. I really do not know three years down the road from now. I have big dreams as well as a Great Lover. I do not know what can i have. Will i have them both? I am not going any younger but i will only plus 1 every year.

Besides, decision of mine that i have made do makes me regret at times. I question myself hard each time but there isn't any answer i regain from it. Too much is inside me that not many would know what i have and wanted. Sorrow and tears drippping from my heart each time..............

Big decision is in my hands at times. Why will have to make decision why will i have to choose this kind of road. There is winter, summer, spring and autumm but yet String attach to a country that have borneo. As i question, i accept it with fate i swallow and i learn slowly.

I grew up from being the most naiive girl on earth that you have not seen to a women that many thinks I am mature for my age. As there is high demand in my character i still stand there patiencely i learn each moment and grow up. Breaking down in tears in helpless moment but there is more than just tears i am actually dripping.

What is God trying to put me into at times....... I am wondering. Till the end i Cried and weil and i still have the string attach to borneo. I love borneo with my heart and soul of the purity left in me that i gave all to borneo. Towards each moment i wish i would be by his side all the time.

The emptiness i felt whenever i never with him is hard.

Meow Chu.... you know who you are.....

Love you Sweetheart!