I did not realize its been months i did not update my blog.
I started my internship 3 weeks ago and next week i will be flying to china for vacation with family.
I have enjoyed my training so far and much better if I am the Only one trainee then. I recently met up with my ex boss and she told me is rather easy to work with enemy then good friends. I finally understand the saying of such.
I seat back in my training sometimes is it right what i do. I am not too sure myself. I don't see myself change but I see the changes in her. I find it so weird that sometimes I do not know to tell he not.
The feeling of being intimidated is just so obvious and anything i do she will just follow. Somehow I am off for a week at least a break out session for me. Coming in to the office should smile but somehow is just sour face and not smile nothing and every time I felt the pressure is from her.
I seriously think is very much my problem but I think after analyzing, i am fine with KY. Well I guest my days are more to come. Scary but I take it as challenge.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
Losing one self
I have been seeing and thinking a lot lately. Many of which i could see how they lose themselves and blame others for the the cause. Isn't it beautiful if one person living in a type of the life they wanted rather than to find out people things and start digging peoples information.
Seeing a friend from many friends to none and even the left back ones are the one for work and nothing more from there on. Life is so so roller coaster.
Seeing a friend from many friends to none and even the left back ones are the one for work and nothing more from there on. Life is so so roller coaster.
Friday, September 30, 2011
Selfishness of oneself
I have been thinking, why people will say i cannot do this, this cannot be done when there is nothing done up. I am not too sure myself.
Talking about project, as nothing been done up. Proposal is not given, and opportunity is out there to be taken but no one wants to do it. Some times I wonder, what will it be if the project turn out a big big Success. Will anyone in my team appreciate or is it i have been always living towards people expectation and that always make it not enough.
I am happy to work with a happy team that make smile and rather not work so much for a f**k up team. My heart is not anymore with school, or my class. I do not know is this a good thing or a bad thing, I have vision myself in 10 years down the road, what I want to achieve in my life. I do not know what the rest are thinking, day pass day or just matter of coming to school and have a fun event that failed and only for them to enjoy! I seriously Have no idea.
Lately I have think about a lot of events thing and some how i have ideas that keeps coming. I just want to have my own show some day! .....
I hope fate brings out the best of the best!!!
Anyway since San left, my phone less busy.. a bit not use to it but I will try and I am already starting to get used to it.. Single ladies show is on.
Talking about project, as nothing been done up. Proposal is not given, and opportunity is out there to be taken but no one wants to do it. Some times I wonder, what will it be if the project turn out a big big Success. Will anyone in my team appreciate or is it i have been always living towards people expectation and that always make it not enough.
I am happy to work with a happy team that make smile and rather not work so much for a f**k up team. My heart is not anymore with school, or my class. I do not know is this a good thing or a bad thing, I have vision myself in 10 years down the road, what I want to achieve in my life. I do not know what the rest are thinking, day pass day or just matter of coming to school and have a fun event that failed and only for them to enjoy! I seriously Have no idea.
Lately I have think about a lot of events thing and some how i have ideas that keeps coming. I just want to have my own show some day! .....
I hope fate brings out the best of the best!!!
Anyway since San left, my phone less busy.. a bit not use to it but I will try and I am already starting to get used to it.. Single ladies show is on.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Weekend I love
Its been a wonderful week and I find that my weekend is mostly taken up. I began to understand what is the meaning of aura light up according to what you are up to. I feel bless in every move and moment that happen in my life.
Is never too hard to move on if we understand what are the situation that one is in and we acknowledge it and react to it slowly. It took me a cycle to understand what is true happiness come from. By me witnessing what susan and adam is having i don't think money can buy those happiness they have.
Nevertheless they are a working class parent which make every single day an ends meet for the survival of the family. Susan and Adam, you two are match make in Heaven.
I finally know what makes you take that decision and know what you really want in life. With the situation you are having, it used to make me think where you are going. I finally see what it called, One doors Closed another door will open.
I am happy that my time of being there makes you smile. You have grown so much in to a find young women who know and develop your dream family that you want. Happy to know that for you.
Is never too hard to move on if we understand what are the situation that one is in and we acknowledge it and react to it slowly. It took me a cycle to understand what is true happiness come from. By me witnessing what susan and adam is having i don't think money can buy those happiness they have.
Nevertheless they are a working class parent which make every single day an ends meet for the survival of the family. Susan and Adam, you two are match make in Heaven.
I finally know what makes you take that decision and know what you really want in life. With the situation you are having, it used to make me think where you are going. I finally see what it called, One doors Closed another door will open.
I am happy that my time of being there makes you smile. You have grown so much in to a find young women who know and develop your dream family that you want. Happy to know that for you.
What exactly Guy Thinking......
Since I have been doing a lot of reading lately.... Hmmp... I did some interview with some friends and also ... interesting answer I found out.
What turns a guys on..... ?? After several interview I finally know that it is Attitude. Yes is true that Guys do look at figures and face and body... But I think they do look at Attitude and know whether or not you are interesting!! Wooopss!!
Guys also do tell me that they prefer lady to be in charge and have some standing for themselves. They like women to be in control at times and this is because there are times they have make so much decision and they just like to hear from point of view for some reason.
As for me and him... Hmm.... I do wish to see future, but I need to know and see and also he proof me wrong. I like that. He love to tease me... and he makes me smile so much that I never thought I could have this Happen.
My love wil only given to a person that really deserve my love. I hate being Played. But currently... I think he is rushing... Should take place and see...
My status is currently Dating..... I am not in a relationship! As there is no formality.... there is not Asking nothing. hhahahaha!!!
I am tradition lover!! Woopss!!!
What turns a guys on..... ?? After several interview I finally know that it is Attitude. Yes is true that Guys do look at figures and face and body... But I think they do look at Attitude and know whether or not you are interesting!! Wooopss!!
Guys also do tell me that they prefer lady to be in charge and have some standing for themselves. They like women to be in control at times and this is because there are times they have make so much decision and they just like to hear from point of view for some reason.
As for me and him... Hmm.... I do wish to see future, but I need to know and see and also he proof me wrong. I like that. He love to tease me... and he makes me smile so much that I never thought I could have this Happen.
My love wil only given to a person that really deserve my love. I hate being Played. But currently... I think he is rushing... Should take place and see...
My status is currently Dating..... I am not in a relationship! As there is no formality.... there is not Asking nothing. hhahahaha!!!
I am tradition lover!! Woopss!!!
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
What is in a Guys Mind ?
To my knowing i find interest in helping many ladies, young innocent heart, and girls who are wondering why being nice girl is never be the apple in their eyes. Let me Draw this.
Nice Girl = Doormat Girl............. Alway on stanby mode, like the delivery man, no thrill, do everything and portray a needy feeling.
Guys = Game
Bitches (Mentally Challenging Girl )= Guys Dreamgirl.......
They are always playing war games, since young excitingly to combat and to win.
Guys are boys mainly, the ego is build in them since they were young. Is all about winning and they feel so proud.
In the analysis and observation, guys love girls that drop their gut. For Instance, Why you see Naughty Girls date Nerdy Guys and Nerdy Girl Date Naughty Boys, simply because they thrill one another. Guys have the set of mind of owning something. When he work easily to get something, it means nothing and no value. Easy Examples, If he work to get an Armani Suit for years, that Armani suit will remembered even if its old and crampy. If he wish for Suit for a long time, and after 7 years he receive it, it added value to suit. Cause it is something he wanted and focus on so long. Perfect! The longer the wait the more he appreciate. Perfect!
Research, interview and applications of theory. Come on peeps, this is real and is happening. To over come three relationship, and one player hmmmm.... Is not as easy as i thought.
In this post, Simply understand the basic draw lines of guys mind. In my next post, I will tell you more why guys react in a way.
These is a common problem with many girls like me myself. Have you ever wonder why you yourself being so nice yet no one appreciate, but Bitches who treat their guys fiercely....... Follow my blog... will guide you there... Is Absolutely Free!!!
Nice Girl = Doormat Girl............. Alway on stanby mode, like the delivery man, no thrill, do everything and portray a needy feeling.
Guys = Game
Bitches (Mentally Challenging Girl )= Guys Dreamgirl.......
They are always playing war games, since young excitingly to combat and to win.
Guys are boys mainly, the ego is build in them since they were young. Is all about winning and they feel so proud.
In the analysis and observation, guys love girls that drop their gut. For Instance, Why you see Naughty Girls date Nerdy Guys and Nerdy Girl Date Naughty Boys, simply because they thrill one another. Guys have the set of mind of owning something. When he work easily to get something, it means nothing and no value. Easy Examples, If he work to get an Armani Suit for years, that Armani suit will remembered even if its old and crampy. If he wish for Suit for a long time, and after 7 years he receive it, it added value to suit. Cause it is something he wanted and focus on so long. Perfect! The longer the wait the more he appreciate. Perfect!
Research, interview and applications of theory. Come on peeps, this is real and is happening. To over come three relationship, and one player hmmmm.... Is not as easy as i thought.
In this post, Simply understand the basic draw lines of guys mind. In my next post, I will tell you more why guys react in a way.
These is a common problem with many girls like me myself. Have you ever wonder why you yourself being so nice yet no one appreciate, but Bitches who treat their guys fiercely....... Follow my blog... will guide you there... Is Absolutely Free!!!
Monday, September 5, 2011
One door closed another door open.......
Welcome to September....
Since my last post, things were still pretty rough for me. As to this post I have understand the title.
I have invested much time and money to self-help books and it cost up to RM500 ringgit. In fact I have also done surveys, interview and test trying on Males. To my surprise I have all the answers.
I came a across this author she said meanwhile waiting for your soulmate to meet you, take that time to prepare, retreat and pamper yourself to the fullest. As i was wondering how true this can be, the next morning I have make a decision that I will just move on bit by bit and letting it go.
Promising myself that each time I can let go, I will praise myself by getting something to love myself even more. Yea is true, everyday pass and till a day i walk down the hall way, I bump in to Kumar, I continue walking and he thought I would stop, but I never, My heart and mind keep telling don't stop don't fall again.
I manage to convince myself to walk and to my surprise he walk back towards me and greeted me. I can see he is trying so hard to make this easier but I make it tough for him. He talk to me but I just spare a few Seconds and I turn and continue walking. I felt so good.
There is a point in the moment, I nearly wanted to go all the way down and confronted him and question him with all i have and also tell the entire world what kind of person he is. Thinking about it over and over again, does he worth me doing all this for him. Time, energy and planning. What do i get at the end of it. Till today there is a question for him that he have not answer me. No matter what someday i will need him to answer that question and i know it won't be too long to know them.
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One door shut and another door open, hmmm..... nice. Sanat a Johanian fella. Grad UTM and currently working for Schlumberger and soon will be posted to Norway, Oslo. Nice city and country.
When he was in Penang we chatted on FB. He said he will be in KL. He wants to meet. So happen I was about to go Bookfest, and I invited him along. I also got to know he is not interested in looking at books. Besides MJ books.
He shakes his right leg when he is nervous, habit while eating. hahahah.... And he brought me up to Genting for two hours and come down. Perfect.
Its been a great Friday and saturday weekend off..... and to what I know today monday, he needs to fly to Norway soon enough.
I am happy for him as there will be a up rising career guy. He requested me to follow him after the second date. But not for me. I have life in Malaysia and I love here. Like I always mention, I do not know what the future hold up for me but I know right now I have begin to find the journey and know many more people who is better than all the ex i had.
Potentially someone will have to be my bestfriend. Guide and tell me and reason things to me. hahahaha....
If there is fate we shall be back in each other arms no matter how and what the situation is. Burning the candle slowly. Perfectly like enjoying my life. Burning it too fast will only finish it fast. No thrill!! hahaha!!!
To now where i am standing, I thank Kumar, cause if not because of him I won't bother getting books, seeking answers, and knowing the reality of love and what Guys mind really are.
Sherry Argov you are the most wonderful lady. You save a simple soul who is out there living and looking for her love but in a way she do it is wrong. Now I know ... Guys and Boys.... there is Never a Men..... hahahahahaha
Ladies and Gentlemen, I am back on my two feet and Trust me..... I have no regrets of knowing this all and if you asked me to go back the cycle of it, the answer is Worth it!!!
I value myself as the mind, I know I have the ability of it. I have a lot to offer so it is Me who select which one I will like to offer.... Ladies Out there... Be a Bitch to Bait your Guy.... Trust me... No pain No Gain No Value. Your guy should learn to value you more and YOu are a Prize to him....
Since my last post, things were still pretty rough for me. As to this post I have understand the title.
I have invested much time and money to self-help books and it cost up to RM500 ringgit. In fact I have also done surveys, interview and test trying on Males. To my surprise I have all the answers.
I came a across this author she said meanwhile waiting for your soulmate to meet you, take that time to prepare, retreat and pamper yourself to the fullest. As i was wondering how true this can be, the next morning I have make a decision that I will just move on bit by bit and letting it go.
Promising myself that each time I can let go, I will praise myself by getting something to love myself even more. Yea is true, everyday pass and till a day i walk down the hall way, I bump in to Kumar, I continue walking and he thought I would stop, but I never, My heart and mind keep telling don't stop don't fall again.
I manage to convince myself to walk and to my surprise he walk back towards me and greeted me. I can see he is trying so hard to make this easier but I make it tough for him. He talk to me but I just spare a few Seconds and I turn and continue walking. I felt so good.
There is a point in the moment, I nearly wanted to go all the way down and confronted him and question him with all i have and also tell the entire world what kind of person he is. Thinking about it over and over again, does he worth me doing all this for him. Time, energy and planning. What do i get at the end of it. Till today there is a question for him that he have not answer me. No matter what someday i will need him to answer that question and i know it won't be too long to know them.
.................................................................................
One door shut and another door open, hmmm..... nice. Sanat a Johanian fella. Grad UTM and currently working for Schlumberger and soon will be posted to Norway, Oslo. Nice city and country.
When he was in Penang we chatted on FB. He said he will be in KL. He wants to meet. So happen I was about to go Bookfest, and I invited him along. I also got to know he is not interested in looking at books. Besides MJ books.
He shakes his right leg when he is nervous, habit while eating. hahahah.... And he brought me up to Genting for two hours and come down. Perfect.
Its been a great Friday and saturday weekend off..... and to what I know today monday, he needs to fly to Norway soon enough.
I am happy for him as there will be a up rising career guy. He requested me to follow him after the second date. But not for me. I have life in Malaysia and I love here. Like I always mention, I do not know what the future hold up for me but I know right now I have begin to find the journey and know many more people who is better than all the ex i had.
Potentially someone will have to be my bestfriend. Guide and tell me and reason things to me. hahahaha....
If there is fate we shall be back in each other arms no matter how and what the situation is. Burning the candle slowly. Perfectly like enjoying my life. Burning it too fast will only finish it fast. No thrill!! hahaha!!!
To now where i am standing, I thank Kumar, cause if not because of him I won't bother getting books, seeking answers, and knowing the reality of love and what Guys mind really are.
Sherry Argov you are the most wonderful lady. You save a simple soul who is out there living and looking for her love but in a way she do it is wrong. Now I know ... Guys and Boys.... there is Never a Men..... hahahahahaha
Ladies and Gentlemen, I am back on my two feet and Trust me..... I have no regrets of knowing this all and if you asked me to go back the cycle of it, the answer is Worth it!!!
I value myself as the mind, I know I have the ability of it. I have a lot to offer so it is Me who select which one I will like to offer.... Ladies Out there... Be a Bitch to Bait your Guy.... Trust me... No pain No Gain No Value. Your guy should learn to value you more and YOu are a Prize to him....
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Guys Mentality in Love
Its been a ride. what a wah la... Anyway, Yea i move on would say now is about 90% and soon it will be over. I had great time being single for now. I find joy in it and I can feel the freedom and I enjoy it in fact. Sounded weird but yea the smile the glory I achieve during this moment in time I accomplish quite a lot of things. I manage to travel spontaneously without hesitation.
Two ladies pack their stuff and head on the road trip. My cousin and i were in the same process. Just helping. With all the expression I have and the journey i been through many would come up to me for advise and surprisingly I am able to help them.
My close friend she like this guy and I guide her there to win his heart. hahaha. Sort of would say the failure in relationship makes me read guys character better and to my knowing actually we women are the game player. the mastermind of the entire thing. Yes is true sounded not but yea is freaking true when I just did a research on it.
The only losing point in a women they rush for compassion and care and this is something when guy perspective take it as Commitment. No offense guys, It is in their nature to them everything is a trying out and a game. Is the nature of them.
Well in this moment of the suffer i went through, Sherry Argov the writer she have this book.... entitle Why Men Love Bitches, have brought me back alive. It Magical and supportive and encouraging.
Ladies Wipe your tears, be a the person take charge of yourself. No point crying that will only benefit him and he enjoys the trigger...
To my surprise, I tested it on some few guys with the theory and also did interview with many guys, and all of them answer to my question correctly with the right prediction. Read it and Try it!!! hahah Good Luck!!
Two ladies pack their stuff and head on the road trip. My cousin and i were in the same process. Just helping. With all the expression I have and the journey i been through many would come up to me for advise and surprisingly I am able to help them.
My close friend she like this guy and I guide her there to win his heart. hahaha. Sort of would say the failure in relationship makes me read guys character better and to my knowing actually we women are the game player. the mastermind of the entire thing. Yes is true sounded not but yea is freaking true when I just did a research on it.
The only losing point in a women they rush for compassion and care and this is something when guy perspective take it as Commitment. No offense guys, It is in their nature to them everything is a trying out and a game. Is the nature of them.
Well in this moment of the suffer i went through, Sherry Argov the writer she have this book.... entitle Why Men Love Bitches, have brought me back alive. It Magical and supportive and encouraging.
Ladies Wipe your tears, be a the person take charge of yourself. No point crying that will only benefit him and he enjoys the trigger...
To my surprise, I tested it on some few guys with the theory and also did interview with many guys, and all of them answer to my question correctly with the right prediction. Read it and Try it!!! hahah Good Luck!!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Moving On
Its been a healing process for me. Rough ride. I forgive and already let it go. New Chapter as I move on in my life.
I have been spending a lot of money in buying books. For research and reading purpose. Each book has it own identity and new things for me to know about Human Character as a base and Break it down more towards the men side of breaking their code to understand them better.
Probably i will take this learning process to a higher level which makes it specimen time or to interview men. Can't wait. hahaha!!!
In reading I find a lot of Answer also a form of meditation for me to calm myself down. I would like to dedicate a thank you to Author Sherry Argov for her two successful Selling Book, Why men Love Bitches and Why Men Marry Bitches. It would not for this book I think i will repeat the things that i will do and it helps to rectify problems in love which occur and never the less I was being Nice. After Reading ..... Ladies, Roll up your Sleeves and enjoy the privilege and be a bitch for them. They Like it do it... hahaha!!
Sherry's Book gave me back the confident and also teaches me how to be in control of myself without losing my identity. Simple and precise as per say. Read it and it helps so much ladies. Hahahaha!!
Today, I went out to meet my Highschool Close Friend. As usual never have the enough time as both were busy. She is in Media Prima line, I am studying Events. Will be working together I think I am not too sure. May be Someday might never know.
I miss her. As she use to be the person in school that i chill out the most with and also 5 consecutive years being in the same class and seat close by. Now I would blame the Teachers for Separating us from seating together because we talk so much.
We went for Lunch and she paid for the bill. Interesting. After that I went to MPH bookstore and I finally found the Book I have been looking for. Perfect.
I find my life now is much better compare to the pass week, I credit myself for being so strong to walk up to the Prime time of myself again.
Thinking of What happen, I read back the Message in the Archive, Kumar did hinted by asking me not to think about him. With This I will be fully aware the next guy, haha, you will never get to come close to me that easy. hahaha!!!
Anyway, I have move on, and I am thankful and glad, things did not work out between me and him, as I think There will be better and Nicer and Wiser Indian Guys available for me to know. Your Lost and not mine, another guys gain. hahahaha!!
Looking forward for my fabulous life which is what I am doing. Enjoying every single minute of it.
To all the Mantra and Sutra's I have read, the light and strength You actually shine down to me. Thank you Lord Buddha for that endless love and blessing to your child here. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu!!! Amitabha!!
I have been spending a lot of money in buying books. For research and reading purpose. Each book has it own identity and new things for me to know about Human Character as a base and Break it down more towards the men side of breaking their code to understand them better.
Probably i will take this learning process to a higher level which makes it specimen time or to interview men. Can't wait. hahaha!!!
In reading I find a lot of Answer also a form of meditation for me to calm myself down. I would like to dedicate a thank you to Author Sherry Argov for her two successful Selling Book, Why men Love Bitches and Why Men Marry Bitches. It would not for this book I think i will repeat the things that i will do and it helps to rectify problems in love which occur and never the less I was being Nice. After Reading ..... Ladies, Roll up your Sleeves and enjoy the privilege and be a bitch for them. They Like it do it... hahaha!!
Sherry's Book gave me back the confident and also teaches me how to be in control of myself without losing my identity. Simple and precise as per say. Read it and it helps so much ladies. Hahahaha!!
Today, I went out to meet my Highschool Close Friend. As usual never have the enough time as both were busy. She is in Media Prima line, I am studying Events. Will be working together I think I am not too sure. May be Someday might never know.
I miss her. As she use to be the person in school that i chill out the most with and also 5 consecutive years being in the same class and seat close by. Now I would blame the Teachers for Separating us from seating together because we talk so much.
We went for Lunch and she paid for the bill. Interesting. After that I went to MPH bookstore and I finally found the Book I have been looking for. Perfect.
I find my life now is much better compare to the pass week, I credit myself for being so strong to walk up to the Prime time of myself again.
Thinking of What happen, I read back the Message in the Archive, Kumar did hinted by asking me not to think about him. With This I will be fully aware the next guy, haha, you will never get to come close to me that easy. hahaha!!!
Anyway, I have move on, and I am thankful and glad, things did not work out between me and him, as I think There will be better and Nicer and Wiser Indian Guys available for me to know. Your Lost and not mine, another guys gain. hahahaha!!
Looking forward for my fabulous life which is what I am doing. Enjoying every single minute of it.
To all the Mantra and Sutra's I have read, the light and strength You actually shine down to me. Thank you Lord Buddha for that endless love and blessing to your child here. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu!!! Amitabha!!
Monday, August 15, 2011
A ride that I just Finally Wake up!!
Its been a crazy ride for me. Being in a relationship with Kumar and than being left and he walks out of my life without a word. Stranded and devastated deep down. I show a little at home but when I am alone I cry in my heart so much. Painfully and sadly.
Finally I am awake and moving on slowly and being help by online therapist and what not. I swear no Depression no more. It is scary for that moment when I thought I might be in Depression mode again. Thank God He is always my Savior. God I heard your whisper and Thank you for being always there for me.
My Journey with Kumar ends here and although I still have feelings for him, there is nothing much I could do about him. During this duration of time I asked myself is he my soul mate or my Jerk Mate? Do I deserve this kind of treatment from him, Where do I see myself with him in 10 years time down the road? There is too much question in my mind. Running through like turbine spinning ....
I have self retreat and join in some forum meeting new people like me, as this also let me know that I am not the only one. I have my family and my entire family love me dearly. I went on for family spa retreat, family meetings and discussion, meet up for the weekends, Movie marathon with my cousin, have pillow talk with my girls. Gossip Queen..
Kumar needs to grow up and be a bit more responsible. Love is some too fragile and innocent to be hurt. Thank goodness this is not my first relationship. There is a lot to tell and nurture, but probably by fate I am not given that chance and another guy benefit from it.
Kumar you are 33 and i think, with what have happen you will never be able to face me if the day you never come clean to me. I have known all your lies and after lies. I know it but i never say it because I did not want to left you without ego especially with your friends around. I also know you when behind my back and many things you said you hurt my innocent heart badly. But you think I am ignorance enough not to know anything.
Kumar, thank you for teaching me this wonderful lesson in life. In another persons eyes probably you are so great and helicopter, cars and evo and bla bla bla, but to be honest material does not bring you to any level that one person judge you in life. You love reputation but today you break it yourself. You could talk to me and I understand that 2 person might not be together for certain reason.
You probably did not know that I do read a lot and I do research a lot. I can read body language and observation brings me a higher level. Kumar, if ever happen to drop by in my blog, welcome.
With this Kumar, I am not scaring you or forcing you or setting up a threat, but this is a place probably you will know who I am and more about my life and the real person I am. I wish you all the best to whoever you are with a great journey sincerely if that makes you happy and I hope the girl will not be ended like me.
Enough of all the sweet words and what not Kumar, thank you for running away from me when you see me paying parking ticket on Orientation Night. Thank you for all the lies and fake hope that you did not even intended to have it with me. Your Mother will be so proud of you.
Though I still have feelings for you but I know I will need to close the chapter soon enough even before I know It. Thank you for everything. You are always BUSY like you said but you are not because I know you can leave your Office at 7pm. Going movie and what not ..and for me is.. no time, I am busy.. and i am with my boss.. well Kumar, enough. Do you know how many people treated you like a clown because of your lies, does not mean you have the power you have the respect. Respect is some you earn
! a 33 years old Clown as in NO LICENSE CLOWN.
Grow up, be real, and soon you will meet someone true and sincere. Lies and fakers will never bring anything high.
You should have your KEY CHAIN back kumar. I will give it to you.
Bye for now!
hey People, Jerks are everywhere....choose wisely, Their job main Job is to mess up peoples life. U Disgrace yourself Kumar.
Oh yea, In order to Gain respect, you are the One needed to Respect People First.
Finally I am awake and moving on slowly and being help by online therapist and what not. I swear no Depression no more. It is scary for that moment when I thought I might be in Depression mode again. Thank God He is always my Savior. God I heard your whisper and Thank you for being always there for me.
My Journey with Kumar ends here and although I still have feelings for him, there is nothing much I could do about him. During this duration of time I asked myself is he my soul mate or my Jerk Mate? Do I deserve this kind of treatment from him, Where do I see myself with him in 10 years time down the road? There is too much question in my mind. Running through like turbine spinning ....
I have self retreat and join in some forum meeting new people like me, as this also let me know that I am not the only one. I have my family and my entire family love me dearly. I went on for family spa retreat, family meetings and discussion, meet up for the weekends, Movie marathon with my cousin, have pillow talk with my girls. Gossip Queen..
Kumar needs to grow up and be a bit more responsible. Love is some too fragile and innocent to be hurt. Thank goodness this is not my first relationship. There is a lot to tell and nurture, but probably by fate I am not given that chance and another guy benefit from it.
Kumar you are 33 and i think, with what have happen you will never be able to face me if the day you never come clean to me. I have known all your lies and after lies. I know it but i never say it because I did not want to left you without ego especially with your friends around. I also know you when behind my back and many things you said you hurt my innocent heart badly. But you think I am ignorance enough not to know anything.
Kumar, thank you for teaching me this wonderful lesson in life. In another persons eyes probably you are so great and helicopter, cars and evo and bla bla bla, but to be honest material does not bring you to any level that one person judge you in life. You love reputation but today you break it yourself. You could talk to me and I understand that 2 person might not be together for certain reason.
You probably did not know that I do read a lot and I do research a lot. I can read body language and observation brings me a higher level. Kumar, if ever happen to drop by in my blog, welcome.
With this Kumar, I am not scaring you or forcing you or setting up a threat, but this is a place probably you will know who I am and more about my life and the real person I am. I wish you all the best to whoever you are with a great journey sincerely if that makes you happy and I hope the girl will not be ended like me.
Enough of all the sweet words and what not Kumar, thank you for running away from me when you see me paying parking ticket on Orientation Night. Thank you for all the lies and fake hope that you did not even intended to have it with me. Your Mother will be so proud of you.
Though I still have feelings for you but I know I will need to close the chapter soon enough even before I know It. Thank you for everything. You are always BUSY like you said but you are not because I know you can leave your Office at 7pm. Going movie and what not ..and for me is.. no time, I am busy.. and i am with my boss.. well Kumar, enough. Do you know how many people treated you like a clown because of your lies, does not mean you have the power you have the respect. Respect is some you earn
! a 33 years old Clown as in NO LICENSE CLOWN.
Grow up, be real, and soon you will meet someone true and sincere. Lies and fakers will never bring anything high.
You should have your KEY CHAIN back kumar. I will give it to you.
Bye for now!
hey People, Jerks are everywhere....choose wisely, Their job main Job is to mess up peoples life. U Disgrace yourself Kumar.
Oh yea, In order to Gain respect, you are the One needed to Respect People First.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Flash of memories...
After uni i head straight home due to Ramadhan Traffic. I went to pick up some food in the bazaar and than Went to carrefour.
As I was walking there is a guy standing there with a glimps of eyes I saw Him.... I double look... I got a shock. 90% look like him. Way of Dressing, Standing, Walking.. Just that this one the Eye is much Bigger. hahaha
I was shock. Immediately all the flashback were in my mind. I am lost in a moment. May be they are brothers. hahahaha!!!!!
So look a like. It mess up my mind. Probably time will let me know what is the answer. In life life When you chase for something or anything it will run away. (Argov)
Is time to stop chasing. Is time to move on and get settle in Life.
As I was walking there is a guy standing there with a glimps of eyes I saw Him.... I double look... I got a shock. 90% look like him. Way of Dressing, Standing, Walking.. Just that this one the Eye is much Bigger. hahaha
I was shock. Immediately all the flashback were in my mind. I am lost in a moment. May be they are brothers. hahahaha!!!!!
So look a like. It mess up my mind. Probably time will let me know what is the answer. In life life When you chase for something or anything it will run away. (Argov)
Is time to stop chasing. Is time to move on and get settle in Life.
Monday, August 8, 2011
Lost......My Mind...
Being the bubbly girl i use to be but not any moment I see those now. I Created a line from those and is hard to walked through it. When I walk it through the same road again it is rather scary then not. I am not too sure of what is going on to my life exactly at the moment. I am sort of Lost with no direction.
Its been a hard road for my journey and why do the Hell in the world you would love doing something so selfish to someone else life. Is it because I am being nice and good that is what I get. I am never too sure of those. Yes I am devastated and that is also your proud doing wrong.
You enter my world and I follow and just move accordingly. Promises and words you hurt me spiritually. I wonder What on earth i have done to you. I am sitting down here wondering why and how was it my mistake, the answer was no.
You said you did not want to disturb my study life, but you have already cut through deep inside her heart and You said " Love is a Feeling and Never to Break it as it is Painful".
I use to love coming to the University, but you spoiled the entire thing. I do not know what do i owe you. I do not know why you have to do this to me, and also just left me half hanging.
If that makes you happy, That continue to live and destroy people's life.
Its been a hard road for my journey and why do the Hell in the world you would love doing something so selfish to someone else life. Is it because I am being nice and good that is what I get. I am never too sure of those. Yes I am devastated and that is also your proud doing wrong.
You enter my world and I follow and just move accordingly. Promises and words you hurt me spiritually. I wonder What on earth i have done to you. I am sitting down here wondering why and how was it my mistake, the answer was no.
You said you did not want to disturb my study life, but you have already cut through deep inside her heart and You said " Love is a Feeling and Never to Break it as it is Painful".
I use to love coming to the University, but you spoiled the entire thing. I do not know what do i owe you. I do not know why you have to do this to me, and also just left me half hanging.
If that makes you happy, That continue to live and destroy people's life.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Continue the Journey.....
Well I have left myself to rod at home for 3 consecutive days with all emotions run up like bucket rush. I cried while listening to music, Going out with cousin brother, sing karaoke, yam cha with my cousins and then become a make up doll for my cousin, went out to Kinokuniya Book Store, and went dinner with sister and cousin.
My life have move again from another level to a higher level where I am sure there will be new challenges ahead of me as i am not sure what. Continue to walk the journey and picking up the bit and pieces that left me much struggle with know what to do? and what he wants and all rubbish connection to it.
Instead of asking what are all the questions and things about him, is time for me to prioritize my self and setting my goals right. Stop by if you think I am right, but please stay away to avoid meddling of friendship instead. PERFECTLY Clear now.
My life is back to normal. I thank the experience i have been through and I see it clearly now of how to handle situation. Is so much excitement when I look at it. I thought it was tough but it is rather smooth sailing now then ever I thought of. In this beginning I have not seen him around. I am stronger than I thought i was never. Smile and cheers.
Something interesting now, Kathrine is bugging me how long more I would like to blog. well To let you know Kat, My blog is a story line in my daily life that I pen down most time. I know you Hate reading. But I love Reading. Kisses...!!!
I have bring myself back up and this time No more Relationship. I hate the feeling of being left Half hanging! it Sucks!!! hahahah!!! I am stronger than Yesterday!!!
My life have move again from another level to a higher level where I am sure there will be new challenges ahead of me as i am not sure what. Continue to walk the journey and picking up the bit and pieces that left me much struggle with know what to do? and what he wants and all rubbish connection to it.
Instead of asking what are all the questions and things about him, is time for me to prioritize my self and setting my goals right. Stop by if you think I am right, but please stay away to avoid meddling of friendship instead. PERFECTLY Clear now.
My life is back to normal. I thank the experience i have been through and I see it clearly now of how to handle situation. Is so much excitement when I look at it. I thought it was tough but it is rather smooth sailing now then ever I thought of. In this beginning I have not seen him around. I am stronger than I thought i was never. Smile and cheers.
Something interesting now, Kathrine is bugging me how long more I would like to blog. well To let you know Kat, My blog is a story line in my daily life that I pen down most time. I know you Hate reading. But I love Reading. Kisses...!!!
I have bring myself back up and this time No more Relationship. I hate the feeling of being left Half hanging! it Sucks!!! hahahah!!! I am stronger than Yesterday!!!
Friday, July 29, 2011
Running In Heels..... and a surprise Reaction!
It was the Orientation Night party 2011 in my university. In the beginning was rough. So rough that I nearly give up and stuff. Kumar he purposely gave me a hard time. Well I can see how Professional he claim to be as he mix the personal and work together. Anyway I was thankful enough to have Siva, Shangkar and Raj to help me out with the system entirely. Kumar came in Very much later to just stand and show his face I suppose. With that I thank Him for letting me know and letting me learn how to run an event without you presents. I don't see anything he have done besides Jing's Harmonica Tuning. Though it can be better but is okie it was good enough for them and the Crew is happy!
After all he has done to me, he can even called me to asked my dad for Discount to purchase Camry. Wow Kumar, you really have the Guts to do this but you know Something Krishna Kumar, you have no Balls to even come and tell me you want it to be over.
Over the time I realize FM people are not that difficult to deal with. They are in fact pretty nice people to deal with in handling stuff. I had sort of much feedback, to my analyze, i think Krishna Kumar, you are having some attitude problem and not other people.
I am fine because I am just 23 and there are a long way more to go.Imagine people, a 33 years old guy..... Behaving in this manner.... Yesterday, you look so immature. You saw me paying the parking, you just went running to your car to avoid me. I wonder How long can you do that. How long would you like to avoid things instead of getting things clear. You are so small.... I use to respect you but now I doubt that is coming from me.......
This is the surprise reaction I have. hey Folks More updates i bet... My interesting Life!!
After all he has done to me, he can even called me to asked my dad for Discount to purchase Camry. Wow Kumar, you really have the Guts to do this but you know Something Krishna Kumar, you have no Balls to even come and tell me you want it to be over.
Over the time I realize FM people are not that difficult to deal with. They are in fact pretty nice people to deal with in handling stuff. I had sort of much feedback, to my analyze, i think Krishna Kumar, you are having some attitude problem and not other people.
I am fine because I am just 23 and there are a long way more to go.Imagine people, a 33 years old guy..... Behaving in this manner.... Yesterday, you look so immature. You saw me paying the parking, you just went running to your car to avoid me. I wonder How long can you do that. How long would you like to avoid things instead of getting things clear. You are so small.... I use to respect you but now I doubt that is coming from me.......
This is the surprise reaction I have. hey Folks More updates i bet... My interesting Life!!
Monday, July 25, 2011
A reality of what is Semester 4
I slept late last night. Although i told myself not to think about it, but somehow it will think about him when he is not even thinking about me. While I force my self to sleep, I finally sleep soundly. I was waken up by a strange dream. I dream about Casket and everywhere I go is all casket and the feeling is like so weird.
This morning I went to school, I told myself is a brand new day, but somehow i felt strange as i will still look out for him. I know i should not.... Is difficult handle the situation. I am not too sure of what it is but definitely i know I had something for him. I know i should go all way out but is like a road block rather looking at it now.
Suffering feeling but i cannot show much out about myself. Sigh!!!!
This morning I went to school, I told myself is a brand new day, but somehow i felt strange as i will still look out for him. I know i should not.... Is difficult handle the situation. I am not too sure of what it is but definitely i know I had something for him. I know i should go all way out but is like a road block rather looking at it now.
Suffering feeling but i cannot show much out about myself. Sigh!!!!
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Sem3 Ending with Drama!! A whole New Beginning in Sem 4
With Grace of God.... Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu... I smoothly went on to Semester 4.
Thinking back when i was in Semester 3, it was all the beginning in life. All this while I thought I have been living a world of a hell lots of shit. But This semester proof me so wrong. Drama in class in like handling the working society people. Finding your own true, trusted and sincere friend is hardest to find.
Sem 3 is one of the most remarkable semester in my uni life. Learning to know what kind of people to deal with. All sort of character and different level of emotion.
From being just me and my friends, I finally thought I found a person right in my life, Different of 10 years, Different Race, well I accepted him for who he is. Till then things went on funny, and I felt weird about everything. Thank you for the beautiful words and treatment. Now being on my own and i am taking charge of anything i do.
Something i should hold on to is my principles. not dating for another year.... hahaha.... I have failed that mission I suppose! Also in Semester 3, my friendship blew up with my best friend. In a week, I lost two of the important thing in my life.
Instead of being devastated I stood up and be strong and I ain't waiting for anyone no more. Time is running out for me and I know i miss out a lot since high school till now. Is time for me to have something nice for myself and do what I love doing. Today where i stand and be is already hard enough to climb the hill. Come if you want to know me. Go far away if you think of not being sincere.
Today I came to a point where i realize, I am the one take charge of my life and How I draw my own life.
Oprah Winfrey: We live our Desirable Life as There is Nothing To Wait!!
To everyone out there you take charge of your life not anyone else. Loves comes a long when you finally find yourself Because then you will find your complete self!!
Cheers Pei Yee.... You are now on your own. Live the fabulousity life that you deserve and Do make your self Proud and your parents.
Thinking back when i was in Semester 3, it was all the beginning in life. All this while I thought I have been living a world of a hell lots of shit. But This semester proof me so wrong. Drama in class in like handling the working society people. Finding your own true, trusted and sincere friend is hardest to find.
Sem 3 is one of the most remarkable semester in my uni life. Learning to know what kind of people to deal with. All sort of character and different level of emotion.
From being just me and my friends, I finally thought I found a person right in my life, Different of 10 years, Different Race, well I accepted him for who he is. Till then things went on funny, and I felt weird about everything. Thank you for the beautiful words and treatment. Now being on my own and i am taking charge of anything i do.
Something i should hold on to is my principles. not dating for another year.... hahaha.... I have failed that mission I suppose! Also in Semester 3, my friendship blew up with my best friend. In a week, I lost two of the important thing in my life.
Instead of being devastated I stood up and be strong and I ain't waiting for anyone no more. Time is running out for me and I know i miss out a lot since high school till now. Is time for me to have something nice for myself and do what I love doing. Today where i stand and be is already hard enough to climb the hill. Come if you want to know me. Go far away if you think of not being sincere.
Today I came to a point where i realize, I am the one take charge of my life and How I draw my own life.
Oprah Winfrey: We live our Desirable Life as There is Nothing To Wait!!
To everyone out there you take charge of your life not anyone else. Loves comes a long when you finally find yourself Because then you will find your complete self!!
Cheers Pei Yee.... You are now on your own. Live the fabulousity life that you deserve and Do make your self Proud and your parents.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Flowing Tears.
I have just came back from Malacca today and I had awesome weekend with my Sister there together with mum and dad of cause.
I have been thinking to myself what I am now. Where am I heading to. What does he want from me. Telling me that he will approve me in FB and all stuff are lies. He never did and Wonder will he remember my name someday.
My heart is badly bash up and Once again I was played out badly in a way.
Kind to think about the logic of it is that why he did not allow me in to his office again. As before he gave me a lot and appreciates me more than like before. As to now I am hurt and I just hope time will just recover me with the strength I have.
Tears are swinging
Sways its way down with grief I hold,
Bleeding of pain fill with my heart of Sorrows,
To see you smile makes all the time great with Pride,
you left me with no answer,
You left me of with no words,
Busy times you have I take it like to Swallow,
As the truth remain surface,
As to be it, I know it of the real thing.
I have been thinking to myself what I am now. Where am I heading to. What does he want from me. Telling me that he will approve me in FB and all stuff are lies. He never did and Wonder will he remember my name someday.
My heart is badly bash up and Once again I was played out badly in a way.
Kind to think about the logic of it is that why he did not allow me in to his office again. As before he gave me a lot and appreciates me more than like before. As to now I am hurt and I just hope time will just recover me with the strength I have.
Tears are swinging
Sways its way down with grief I hold,
Bleeding of pain fill with my heart of Sorrows,
To see you smile makes all the time great with Pride,
you left me with no answer,
You left me of with no words,
Busy times you have I take it like to Swallow,
As the truth remain surface,
As to be it, I know it of the real thing.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Some how I am smiling...
I miss him bad, but I respect it because of his work. He thinks differently and probably I need to understand the stress a little bit.
Being in a situation like this makes me more freedom and good deal. I can do so much more and achieve what I want in life.
His sentence, and his laughter makes me smile the entire day as I am glad I am able to make him smile!!
hahahaha!!! Miss you more each day!!
Being in a situation like this makes me more freedom and good deal. I can do so much more and achieve what I want in life.
His sentence, and his laughter makes me smile the entire day as I am glad I am able to make him smile!!
hahahaha!!! Miss you more each day!!
Rainforest World Music Festival 2011
I had one of the most brilliant time in RWMF 2011. I was assign to Gina's Team for Gate control. Great team mates and Leader to work with.
In this event, I met people from across the globe and I am actually living a life of my dream when i was young. Those time I remembered how much i want to be part of the organizing team as I felt privilege in it.
Most of my dream I have race to achieve it well. It was one of the Best event I had work with. Being there is Sharon make it better and of cause I talk my heart out to her and glad we can be together for all knowing reasons. haha.
By fate I met 2 girls, wonderful girls, Parvin and Harvin because of them I met Shigan. I understand how much fun time I had.
Back in to the reality of the world, many things came to my mind, and i clearly understand what i really want in my life and who i wanted (as in the quality in a guy) I am not certain with the current one as he is so busy with Jobs, and he is lovely now. At least he speaks to me.
B, Nowadays I hate to talk to people you know, but than is me that makes the different... he laugh...!! hahaha!!!
Your laughter makes me smile so much in my heart you tough man! hahaha!!
Like i would say, I will only live my life for myself as I felt this way makes me happier and not to worried about other things that make me confuse. I think I have fallen from the top of the mountain till the lowest end of my life which my parents have totally no idea what their daughter have gone through in her life.
I am dating a guy ten years older than me. Does the race really matters, or her face that she would like to take care of. If ever I hear that from another mouth that person will just get a good luck from me!! I suppose!!! Mind your own business where yours is neither that good nor better than me!
Somehow as i grow up, I just felt that I had sick and tire of the mindset which I do not like those anymore. How many this and that and Chinese.... I am sorry, chinese have to be modern thinking!!!! The guy now I am dating, he is one of the kind... I miss him so much more by him allowing me the freedom!!!
In this event, I met people from across the globe and I am actually living a life of my dream when i was young. Those time I remembered how much i want to be part of the organizing team as I felt privilege in it.
Most of my dream I have race to achieve it well. It was one of the Best event I had work with. Being there is Sharon make it better and of cause I talk my heart out to her and glad we can be together for all knowing reasons. haha.
By fate I met 2 girls, wonderful girls, Parvin and Harvin because of them I met Shigan. I understand how much fun time I had.
Back in to the reality of the world, many things came to my mind, and i clearly understand what i really want in my life and who i wanted (as in the quality in a guy) I am not certain with the current one as he is so busy with Jobs, and he is lovely now. At least he speaks to me.
B, Nowadays I hate to talk to people you know, but than is me that makes the different... he laugh...!! hahaha!!!
Your laughter makes me smile so much in my heart you tough man! hahaha!!
Like i would say, I will only live my life for myself as I felt this way makes me happier and not to worried about other things that make me confuse. I think I have fallen from the top of the mountain till the lowest end of my life which my parents have totally no idea what their daughter have gone through in her life.
I am dating a guy ten years older than me. Does the race really matters, or her face that she would like to take care of. If ever I hear that from another mouth that person will just get a good luck from me!! I suppose!!! Mind your own business where yours is neither that good nor better than me!
Somehow as i grow up, I just felt that I had sick and tire of the mindset which I do not like those anymore. How many this and that and Chinese.... I am sorry, chinese have to be modern thinking!!!! The guy now I am dating, he is one of the kind... I miss him so much more by him allowing me the freedom!!!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
6 July 2011.. Wednesday!!
I kick-start with Rainforest for this time around of semester break. I have gain many things in semester 3, yet again i lost some of it. Its painful, hurtful, and tearful to my which some people may not even care what i feel and what their action causes the others.
I thought I have let it all away but deep down I hold it tight in my heart. I will be flying to Kuching, Sarawak tomorrow. Without a goodbye and not even a call. It is heartbreaking.
I was speaking to Meryll over facebook, and i just realize what is the 8 years and it is really a long period of time a person to know what is all about. I am not sure how long this heartbreak will take to recover.
I don't even have the mood to go for anything but situation forces me to go. I am not too sure what is going to happen. As far as i know it most likely a positive energy that will be given to me.
If the relationship from the start is rough, what will it takes to makes thing smoother.
I remember your words.
I said this is who I am will you be able to take it. This is what you Said.
I cry easily, you said you will make me laugh
I do have a certain set of Chinese Mind, you said you like chinese mind
I am very clingy, you said you like the way i am and keep it that way
I am modern thinking, you said you like modern way of thinking
You practically convince me to fall for you and you slash my feelings like a piece of toy.
You said you will never raise your voice on me, YES you did....
You fail to keep your promise even from the start. Base on my many years of analysis, you are either messing with the Fire Aries if not you are playing with the most purity things in the world which is Love.
I wonder if your mom knows about what the son did... she will be proud of you. hahaha!!
I somehow miss you, but i would rather blog about it than to call, as I know you are Gaying with your Boss , if not you are busy with your so called JOB.... where all can have rest time but not you!
I thought I have let it all away but deep down I hold it tight in my heart. I will be flying to Kuching, Sarawak tomorrow. Without a goodbye and not even a call. It is heartbreaking.
I was speaking to Meryll over facebook, and i just realize what is the 8 years and it is really a long period of time a person to know what is all about. I am not sure how long this heartbreak will take to recover.
I don't even have the mood to go for anything but situation forces me to go. I am not too sure what is going to happen. As far as i know it most likely a positive energy that will be given to me.
If the relationship from the start is rough, what will it takes to makes thing smoother.
I remember your words.
I said this is who I am will you be able to take it. This is what you Said.
I cry easily, you said you will make me laugh
I do have a certain set of Chinese Mind, you said you like chinese mind
I am very clingy, you said you like the way i am and keep it that way
I am modern thinking, you said you like modern way of thinking
You practically convince me to fall for you and you slash my feelings like a piece of toy.
You said you will never raise your voice on me, YES you did....
You fail to keep your promise even from the start. Base on my many years of analysis, you are either messing with the Fire Aries if not you are playing with the most purity things in the world which is Love.
I wonder if your mom knows about what the son did... she will be proud of you. hahaha!!
I somehow miss you, but i would rather blog about it than to call, as I know you are Gaying with your Boss , if not you are busy with your so called JOB.... where all can have rest time but not you!
Friday, July 1, 2011
A day of no calls or msg.!!
Its been a hard day for me to resist myself from thinking about it. Nevertheless the temptation is there.
I am glad to have a group of cousin and friends that supported me all the way and I would learn to take charge tomorrow.
I had a bunch of friends that wanted happiness for me as they know I am like that. I have finally come to an answer that certain things are not meant to be happen due to certain reason when the time is right.
As for now, I am not sure yet. I need to call Siva tomorrow to know how is things. I will need him to know that if he really want me, he needs to come for me.
Stress up with all the callings and rubbish! Taking charge of my life once again is to hold on to it tight and this time around I hope the Grip is stronger than ever before which I do not wish to let it go. I am who I am and if you fall for me... it would be me and not someone else I pretend to be!
Take charge time. Going to bed Now!! Off to Malacca 3 days!!!
I am glad to have a group of cousin and friends that supported me all the way and I would learn to take charge tomorrow.
I had a bunch of friends that wanted happiness for me as they know I am like that. I have finally come to an answer that certain things are not meant to be happen due to certain reason when the time is right.
As for now, I am not sure yet. I need to call Siva tomorrow to know how is things. I will need him to know that if he really want me, he needs to come for me.
Stress up with all the callings and rubbish! Taking charge of my life once again is to hold on to it tight and this time around I hope the Grip is stronger than ever before which I do not wish to let it go. I am who I am and if you fall for me... it would be me and not someone else I pretend to be!
Take charge time. Going to bed Now!! Off to Malacca 3 days!!!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Someday you will spare your time to read...
There is a lot that i would like yo say in here. I am not too sure when will i get my opportunity to speak to you and to let you know how i feel and involve in your life.
It is no one's fault as to per saying that it takes two hands to clap. I appreciate everything you have done for me and said to me. Being together for almost a month now. I think you would probably forget and well i never aspect anything.
I have a seriously thought about the current situation to myself. I climb a road which is winding and till here I am today. I met you. It was a blessing that I met you and I was pretty impress of how you actually get me.
I do wonder to myself am I just a companion to you or someone precious in your life like you said. I am not clear as I am not too sure. There is so much I would like to speak out, as you were busy with work and bosses.
In my heart the miss I had for you growing each day and disappointment is greater as well. I am not sure how long and how I would do it this time around. I think it over and I seriously think the relationship needed some fixed up by you.
I know I am taking on the risk, and the back fire way but somehow, I talk to my cousins and all my cousins they said the same thing. I have been too nice to everyone and they just take me for a ride.
It is sad that I need to take the decision to move on till you are seriously ready to come back for me. I am 23 and i know what is the best solutions for me. I would appreciate if I have someone just call me up and take me out for a random rounds around the city or just get Starbucks Hot Chocolate and hot Hazel Nut Chocolate and go a round for just a couple of minutes.
If just do not want people to know, when having lunch we could drive out to have something nice and come back. A short 30 minutes outing makes it feel special. It does not have to be fancy or high class.
Kumar, you scribble something in my heart. Like what my bro tells me, if the love is there appreciate and never let it go.
If happens to read my blog, I am more than willing to be your personal assistant, best friend, partners, team mates, and lover.
I don't have to do anything by just watching you, it makes my day. That is how charming you are and when you work with cables and connection of long wires.... you look so so amazing.
Krishna Kumar, you stole my heart.
That does not mean laid back should be counted. Catch it when its there and all i understand guys, if they want something badly, they will go all the way back in there!!!
I am just here.... standing and watching and waiting I suppose.!!!
It is no one's fault as to per saying that it takes two hands to clap. I appreciate everything you have done for me and said to me. Being together for almost a month now. I think you would probably forget and well i never aspect anything.
I have a seriously thought about the current situation to myself. I climb a road which is winding and till here I am today. I met you. It was a blessing that I met you and I was pretty impress of how you actually get me.
I do wonder to myself am I just a companion to you or someone precious in your life like you said. I am not clear as I am not too sure. There is so much I would like to speak out, as you were busy with work and bosses.
In my heart the miss I had for you growing each day and disappointment is greater as well. I am not sure how long and how I would do it this time around. I think it over and I seriously think the relationship needed some fixed up by you.
I know I am taking on the risk, and the back fire way but somehow, I talk to my cousins and all my cousins they said the same thing. I have been too nice to everyone and they just take me for a ride.
It is sad that I need to take the decision to move on till you are seriously ready to come back for me. I am 23 and i know what is the best solutions for me. I would appreciate if I have someone just call me up and take me out for a random rounds around the city or just get Starbucks Hot Chocolate and hot Hazel Nut Chocolate and go a round for just a couple of minutes.
If just do not want people to know, when having lunch we could drive out to have something nice and come back. A short 30 minutes outing makes it feel special. It does not have to be fancy or high class.
Kumar, you scribble something in my heart. Like what my bro tells me, if the love is there appreciate and never let it go.
If happens to read my blog, I am more than willing to be your personal assistant, best friend, partners, team mates, and lover.
I don't have to do anything by just watching you, it makes my day. That is how charming you are and when you work with cables and connection of long wires.... you look so so amazing.
Krishna Kumar, you stole my heart.
That does not mean laid back should be counted. Catch it when its there and all i understand guys, if they want something badly, they will go all the way back in there!!!
I am just here.... standing and watching and waiting I suppose.!!!
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Asian Culture......
Today i have something interesting to share. No offence but is just my perception towards the culture that I am being Classified under without a choice. Asian culture are rich and full of culture and bonding. I would consider a rare one now as the fast emerging to the western practice. It is sad to see it now.
Keeping the sense of origin of the culture and traditions makes me proud of my very own culture.
As to that, towards a certain point i would consider something that does not really make sense to me is that Asians have the mentality of living in the eyes or words of others. Which sometimes I feel so weird about it. I wonder is it my fault, my weirdness of behavior, somehow I came out with a perception that I do not live for the others and I believe not many individual have the same mindset with me.
Feeling weird at times, I do question myself why do i have a western set of knowledge and perception but when it come to tradition I uphold it with pride. It makes me think. Most time when others talk they will always this sentence what do you think other will think about me? is it that so important that sometimes it cause a person to stop pursuing it.
Feeling weird as I am pure breed chinese with Baba Nyonya Descendant, why will i have this kind of mentality.
As to the asian culture they love to mix everything like a mixing bowl salad. In working environment to cabinet or event from school, religion is being mistakenly took as race. it is really sad to see that.
Why religion have to part of the work force, as i remember it is part of life believe that each individual have the right to choose and believe in. As the matter of fact, it have became an issue in work force as to look at it, it is more of peer pressure than the choice of religion one choose and understand.
it would be so nice if they just drop all this and just do their Duties.
Its scare the hell out of me even way before I am out in my industry to work. All the pressure and Respect I think is no longer there.
Keeping the sense of origin of the culture and traditions makes me proud of my very own culture.
As to that, towards a certain point i would consider something that does not really make sense to me is that Asians have the mentality of living in the eyes or words of others. Which sometimes I feel so weird about it. I wonder is it my fault, my weirdness of behavior, somehow I came out with a perception that I do not live for the others and I believe not many individual have the same mindset with me.
Feeling weird at times, I do question myself why do i have a western set of knowledge and perception but when it come to tradition I uphold it with pride. It makes me think. Most time when others talk they will always this sentence what do you think other will think about me? is it that so important that sometimes it cause a person to stop pursuing it.
Feeling weird as I am pure breed chinese with Baba Nyonya Descendant, why will i have this kind of mentality.
As to the asian culture they love to mix everything like a mixing bowl salad. In working environment to cabinet or event from school, religion is being mistakenly took as race. it is really sad to see that.
Why religion have to part of the work force, as i remember it is part of life believe that each individual have the right to choose and believe in. As the matter of fact, it have became an issue in work force as to look at it, it is more of peer pressure than the choice of religion one choose and understand.
it would be so nice if they just drop all this and just do their Duties.
Its scare the hell out of me even way before I am out in my industry to work. All the pressure and Respect I think is no longer there.
Friday, June 10, 2011
I think I am in the walk of Love Again I think!!! Peeps!!
Its been a rollercoaster ride for me recently dealing with event and in the events we have Entertainment and Exhibition.... Way to go girl..... there is so much more... I wonder.. what future holds on my shoulder.
I have been working very closely with Kumar during Events and he was all there to support and guide me through. Time heals the motion and yea I am Happy to be with him. I feel so secure when I am with him!
Its been a one year journey that I left myself to think of what i want and who i want to be as well as for my relationship. To friends that know me I think they know what kind of person I am.
I left myself being on my own is to take my time to understands me and to know be more mature and grown up. Nevertheless not everything my friends or my ex said about me is totally wrong. In a way i do find some common sense answer for it. I grow up so much.
As i am not in a relationship unless he confess and make an official one. hahaha.... I would consider myself dating but not in a relationship as official i suppose. hahahaha............ He got my heart but still i need the official thing as in Traditional way of doing it.....
On the other hand I am currently Seating down smiling to myself when I see My friend is sad as someone just did not online. She is a bit in her ego but I suppose is not really a bad thing I think. Her action makes me laugh as I know what is the root cause for her long sided face. Muahahahaha!!!!
I do miss him when I don't see him. I just wish I can Hug Me!!!!
I have been working very closely with Kumar during Events and he was all there to support and guide me through. Time heals the motion and yea I am Happy to be with him. I feel so secure when I am with him!
Its been a one year journey that I left myself to think of what i want and who i want to be as well as for my relationship. To friends that know me I think they know what kind of person I am.
I left myself being on my own is to take my time to understands me and to know be more mature and grown up. Nevertheless not everything my friends or my ex said about me is totally wrong. In a way i do find some common sense answer for it. I grow up so much.
As i am not in a relationship unless he confess and make an official one. hahaha.... I would consider myself dating but not in a relationship as official i suppose. hahahaha............ He got my heart but still i need the official thing as in Traditional way of doing it.....
On the other hand I am currently Seating down smiling to myself when I see My friend is sad as someone just did not online. She is a bit in her ego but I suppose is not really a bad thing I think. Her action makes me laugh as I know what is the root cause for her long sided face. Muahahahaha!!!!
I do miss him when I don't see him. I just wish I can Hug Me!!!!
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Surprise Party!!! I love Giving and Receiving Surprises!! Thrill!!
Giving surprises somehow makes me happy in a way! I don't know why! I love giving them Surprises and they make me so happy.
Surprise party was plan for Vliamz with the help of his housemate and yasir. his Buddy. We manage to pull it off without a single suspicious from him. Great team!!
Happy Birthday Vee Liam.... Happy that you like the shirt I bought you as a present.
May God Shine you more Glory in your Future and with prayer I wish you all the best in life! Stay happy all the time!!
Mr. Gemini, you are just one of the kind that Can never make me sad for long,.......
Surprise party was plan for Vliamz with the help of his housemate and yasir. his Buddy. We manage to pull it off without a single suspicious from him. Great team!!
Happy Birthday Vee Liam.... Happy that you like the shirt I bought you as a present.
May God Shine you more Glory in your Future and with prayer I wish you all the best in life! Stay happy all the time!!
Mr. Gemini, you are just one of the kind that Can never make me sad for long,.......
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Busy with events..... Taylor's Tourism Discovery Day!!
I have manage to get the museum to borrow me those traditional Costume Wears and it is so lovely. Perfect.
Been Busy and upcoming birthday celebration!! I have two good friends birthday and two Gemini.... Great and really nice friends... Awesome!!
As such we do not know yet what will happen and wait till the second post!!!
hahahah!!!!
Been Busy and upcoming birthday celebration!! I have two good friends birthday and two Gemini.... Great and really nice friends... Awesome!!
As such we do not know yet what will happen and wait till the second post!!!
hahahah!!!!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Borneo Jazz Festival 12-15 May 2011
I was away during this Four Days... and We are all having good time. Kathrine, Itah, Henna, Saya,Tia and myself were representing Taylor's University on behalf of the volunteer Program.
I had the greatest time of all in Miri this time around with my friends and most important thing.... the Awesomeness of the Entire Crew..... for Borneo Jazz Festival especially Sarawak Tourism Board. Dato' Rashid Khan.... He is so cool... a very different minister from many others i have seen!! Cool Guy!!
Spending my four days there was practically Marathon as I have serve intern there before so I have some friends down there. I have to arrange time to meet them and also to go and have time with them and on the other hand I have Assignment and Selling of Booth to do. Dealing like 7 task in a go.... Great work.. I am in Miri... but I am working from Laptop for booth selling.... great me!!
The experience is cool and is so so worth it. Is so nice meeting new people and making new friends from expat and other crew as well!! Especially musician during their final night in the lounge till 4 in the morning.... we were all drinking.....
Nice nice..... Definitely the most worth while experience and the happiest Trip to Miri of all!!! Miri finally makes me smile!! Thank you... Borneo Jazz and Sarawak Tourism Board!! Cheers!!
I had the greatest time of all in Miri this time around with my friends and most important thing.... the Awesomeness of the Entire Crew..... for Borneo Jazz Festival especially Sarawak Tourism Board. Dato' Rashid Khan.... He is so cool... a very different minister from many others i have seen!! Cool Guy!!
Spending my four days there was practically Marathon as I have serve intern there before so I have some friends down there. I have to arrange time to meet them and also to go and have time with them and on the other hand I have Assignment and Selling of Booth to do. Dealing like 7 task in a go.... Great work.. I am in Miri... but I am working from Laptop for booth selling.... great me!!
The experience is cool and is so so worth it. Is so nice meeting new people and making new friends from expat and other crew as well!! Especially musician during their final night in the lounge till 4 in the morning.... we were all drinking.....
Nice nice..... Definitely the most worth while experience and the happiest Trip to Miri of all!!! Miri finally makes me smile!! Thank you... Borneo Jazz and Sarawak Tourism Board!! Cheers!!
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Happy Mother's Day..............
Wishing all the mother in the world... Happy Mother's Day.
I had mine simple. Dad cooks and I just make a simple card for mummy this year. Every year I have cards for her. She keeps it and she love it.
My mum , the greatest mum..... She place me so high that I could nearly don't know who i am .... Thank you for the love and care mum... and You know I love you always.
Muacks Muacks!!
Pei Yee!
I had mine simple. Dad cooks and I just make a simple card for mummy this year. Every year I have cards for her. She keeps it and she love it.
My mum , the greatest mum..... She place me so high that I could nearly don't know who i am .... Thank you for the love and care mum... and You know I love you always.
Muacks Muacks!!
Pei Yee!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Epic Continue from the Busy Madness Day I left for Team Building!
It was Friday and Vliamz and yasir drop me off as I handed the car to Vliamz to take care. hahaha!! He finally unload my stuff and I took my love shape pillow with me to Team building.
When boarding the Bus, I sat with Raymond as i know Raymond alone there. Soon as we arrived at Kajang Country Heights Resort and Spa mainly are indoor activities for the first few Rounds and to Sort the rooms and also to break the Ice.
Finally we got the keys and I am in the same room with Kelly and Same house with Claire, Rebecca and Shimana.
Honestly speaking the princess me never been to camp. The second day activities started at 8 am. and Begin with running as I was running the respiration problem attack again. sigh. Could not run so the few of us just walk!
Soon there is break time and we rest and when for Breakfast. It was game session about trust and communicate using signal language!
It was not about the game but is about the Awesome Group which all of us are together like Brothers and sister and is so so fun.
Never had such a wonderful time for team building. This is so fun!! Thank goodness the rooms were alright and the place were a nice place to have team building.
After Coming home, there is a list of work for me to follow up. I am so dead and finally had today off.... Brilliant!
Sleep with Peaceful mind after Handling the Class as Class Representative, Student Council for Proposal, and also event Logistic and Entertainment Costume! I am a super Girl!! 5 things in a Go!!! Wonderful!!!
Pei Yee
When boarding the Bus, I sat with Raymond as i know Raymond alone there. Soon as we arrived at Kajang Country Heights Resort and Spa mainly are indoor activities for the first few Rounds and to Sort the rooms and also to break the Ice.
Finally we got the keys and I am in the same room with Kelly and Same house with Claire, Rebecca and Shimana.
Honestly speaking the princess me never been to camp. The second day activities started at 8 am. and Begin with running as I was running the respiration problem attack again. sigh. Could not run so the few of us just walk!
Soon there is break time and we rest and when for Breakfast. It was game session about trust and communicate using signal language!
It was not about the game but is about the Awesome Group which all of us are together like Brothers and sister and is so so fun.
Never had such a wonderful time for team building. This is so fun!! Thank goodness the rooms were alright and the place were a nice place to have team building.
After Coming home, there is a list of work for me to follow up. I am so dead and finally had today off.... Brilliant!
Sleep with Peaceful mind after Handling the Class as Class Representative, Student Council for Proposal, and also event Logistic and Entertainment Costume! I am a super Girl!! 5 things in a Go!!! Wonderful!!!
Pei Yee
Thursday, April 28, 2011
So busy................ Till No Time!!!
I just realize why people say 24 hours in a day is not enough. I think One Week also not enough. So busy..... Just did a few things and not is about 10 and yet I have not pack my bag yet.... This time really Fish O Fillet...... No time to Pack also...
I just realize there are Three assignment if not mistaken to be Execute Next week it self and the Beautiful queendy Me Sitting down and Getting ready for Team Building tomorrow!!! My Goodness.... Pei Yee.... See Join la.... Join.... Student Council now no time!!!
Sigh!!!
My goodness Hopefully When I have the time I will be able to do the assignment...... Card Board also Haven Buy!!! This time really MCB d...... Pei Yee!!! You seriously need to get Organized.......
Damns.............
Pei yee!!
I just realize there are Three assignment if not mistaken to be Execute Next week it self and the Beautiful queendy Me Sitting down and Getting ready for Team Building tomorrow!!! My Goodness.... Pei Yee.... See Join la.... Join.... Student Council now no time!!!
Sigh!!!
My goodness Hopefully When I have the time I will be able to do the assignment...... Card Board also Haven Buy!!! This time really MCB d...... Pei Yee!!! You seriously need to get Organized.......
Damns.............
Pei yee!!
Monday, April 25, 2011
What a Monday.... Goals Achieved....
Being rush up and down in the divisional office. I do not want to go in there again. Spending my holidays worrying for the Timetable and arrangement make me so tire and worth all the effort I have been wanting for. I am Happy and I hope the most important thing the Class is Happy with the Arrangement for it. Awesomeness.
With a fairly monday.... Today I had a calm monday and wonderful day as I get to meet kathrine. Lovely. My classmate and all. Colors of my life that they painted in my. Wonderful.
Hopefully.... nothing goes wrong and Rehearsal can start as soon as it can be. Wonderful. and Medley.... Nice nice cannot wait to see how the outline turns out to be. Wonderful and brilliant!!
What Could I asked for more.... Thank you God for everything that you have make it possible for me ....to happen in reality now!!
Pei yee.
With a fairly monday.... Today I had a calm monday and wonderful day as I get to meet kathrine. Lovely. My classmate and all. Colors of my life that they painted in my. Wonderful.
Hopefully.... nothing goes wrong and Rehearsal can start as soon as it can be. Wonderful. and Medley.... Nice nice cannot wait to see how the outline turns out to be. Wonderful and brilliant!!
What Could I asked for more.... Thank you God for everything that you have make it possible for me ....to happen in reality now!!
Pei yee.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Living the Dream Life I Am Craving....
I will start of with the Birthday.... I stop there. It a week from there now. hahaha! Dear friends, I had the most unforgettable birthday and as such is the most Brilliant thing my brother Chung had done for me. In collaboration with the the girlfriend (Shin Yee's) Idea, everything turns out so smooth and nice. Brilliant and awesome. In the morning I was expecting just wishes from friends and classmates. But they surprise me with the Birthday Cake. They suddenly switch off the light and Vee Liam, Yasir, and Malvin brought the cake in. I was Smiling Endlessly. Superb!! Sweet........... Thanks so much to all of them and Miss Chrisilda. hahaha!! Thank you for the Surprise. Appreciated.
At night I had an appointment with Shin Yee and Chung for dinner and as such, I have no idea who else were coming. Mel told me she was having dental Appointment may not make it. Kathrine told me she may be need to go for Meeting, and Vee liam Told me he is Busy that night. So I was assuming that yea is all true and yea... I will only celebrate the Birthday with Shin yee and Chung.
As i slept late the night for assignment compilation, I need to crash in to vee liam's place to Have a short Sleep. Too Tire. It will be till late and trust me I still need to drive home. I did not realize he was going and they are giving me surprises. So I was delaying in his apartment. They were all so funny..... with all the expression and call me the Queen of Slowness!!! What to do... Being pampered all the time by friends!!!!! hahaha.
Soon I went out and I drove happily there down to the basement where vee liam normally drive. So okie I Drove all the way to Pyramid Down Parking. Taking my Time and make sure my car was okie. As i arrive, I called shin yee and they asked me to walk to Nichii.... as she was shopping in there. hahaha
I meet up with her and chung and they make me walk a big round just to get me to Thai thai Restuarant as plan. As I reach I got a shock.... I saw two person sitting there looking very familiar. One the attire were familiar and another the hair and the Dressing was so familiar. It was Vee liam and Kathrine. My jaw Drop........ And I was like saying... what are you guys doing here..... I am so shock. ....... There is 6 chair and Left with one and I have the Feeling mel was coming. But Mel have dentist ..... So Brush it aside.
Sitting down a while, There comes my princess .... Melissa is here... I Am so so happy... my Best buddy make it... I am so so happy with them.
Sitting... Chatting.... and my Ice-Cream baskin Robin!!!
Kathrine have given me the best gift ..... she have grown in to a fine women and knows what she wants in life. Is the Greatest Achievement she had achieved.
I am so Lucky to have all of you as my friends. You guys created the most beautiful thing in my life and you have given me back my Courage, my Smile, and my happiness. Even for the moment I lose hope in myself you guys believe in me so much. I don't even believe myself but you guys believe in me so much that Makes me stand up and trust my self again. You guys are Marvelous.
Coming back to my life.....
I have recently got selected to East Borneo for the Miri jazz Festival as well as the Rainforest Musical Festival in Kuching by the Sarawak Tourism Board to help out on the particular event and to gain exposure. Well would say is a once in a life time event I suppose. Honored and Flattered. hahaha!!
Besides, I have resume the 7 years of the dance passion i have.... and I question myself when is this going away... yet is not going away.... So after seven years, Now i am back dancing doing my Latin Dance and Salsa. besides, I am learning Broadway theater and living a dream of a Stage performance life. How wonderful can it be then this... Brilliant and awesome Blossom!!!
My Life..... My Epic... More to come....
Pei Yee.
At night I had an appointment with Shin Yee and Chung for dinner and as such, I have no idea who else were coming. Mel told me she was having dental Appointment may not make it. Kathrine told me she may be need to go for Meeting, and Vee liam Told me he is Busy that night. So I was assuming that yea is all true and yea... I will only celebrate the Birthday with Shin yee and Chung.
As i slept late the night for assignment compilation, I need to crash in to vee liam's place to Have a short Sleep. Too Tire. It will be till late and trust me I still need to drive home. I did not realize he was going and they are giving me surprises. So I was delaying in his apartment. They were all so funny..... with all the expression and call me the Queen of Slowness!!! What to do... Being pampered all the time by friends!!!!! hahaha.
Soon I went out and I drove happily there down to the basement where vee liam normally drive. So okie I Drove all the way to Pyramid Down Parking. Taking my Time and make sure my car was okie. As i arrive, I called shin yee and they asked me to walk to Nichii.... as she was shopping in there. hahaha
I meet up with her and chung and they make me walk a big round just to get me to Thai thai Restuarant as plan. As I reach I got a shock.... I saw two person sitting there looking very familiar. One the attire were familiar and another the hair and the Dressing was so familiar. It was Vee liam and Kathrine. My jaw Drop........ And I was like saying... what are you guys doing here..... I am so shock. ....... There is 6 chair and Left with one and I have the Feeling mel was coming. But Mel have dentist ..... So Brush it aside.
Sitting down a while, There comes my princess .... Melissa is here... I Am so so happy... my Best buddy make it... I am so so happy with them.
Sitting... Chatting.... and my Ice-Cream baskin Robin!!!
Kathrine have given me the best gift ..... she have grown in to a fine women and knows what she wants in life. Is the Greatest Achievement she had achieved.
I am so Lucky to have all of you as my friends. You guys created the most beautiful thing in my life and you have given me back my Courage, my Smile, and my happiness. Even for the moment I lose hope in myself you guys believe in me so much. I don't even believe myself but you guys believe in me so much that Makes me stand up and trust my self again. You guys are Marvelous.
Coming back to my life.....
I have recently got selected to East Borneo for the Miri jazz Festival as well as the Rainforest Musical Festival in Kuching by the Sarawak Tourism Board to help out on the particular event and to gain exposure. Well would say is a once in a life time event I suppose. Honored and Flattered. hahaha!!
Besides, I have resume the 7 years of the dance passion i have.... and I question myself when is this going away... yet is not going away.... So after seven years, Now i am back dancing doing my Latin Dance and Salsa. besides, I am learning Broadway theater and living a dream of a Stage performance life. How wonderful can it be then this... Brilliant and awesome Blossom!!!
My Life..... My Epic... More to come....
Pei Yee.
Monday, April 11, 2011
its my Birthday today!!!
Wonder what would it be.... Hmm..... still looking upon it.
Today I am officially 23 and I feel so proud of myself for the achievement I have had so far.
Without Mel, Kathrine, and most of all my Dh32 G4 definitely no today.
I am expecting a Simple Day today and nice and smooth day..........
Happy birthday To me...
Just To all that wish me..... Thank you from the bottom of my Heart and May God Bless you ......
Pei Yee
Today I am officially 23 and I feel so proud of myself for the achievement I have had so far.
Without Mel, Kathrine, and most of all my Dh32 G4 definitely no today.
I am expecting a Simple Day today and nice and smooth day..........
Happy birthday To me...
Just To all that wish me..... Thank you from the bottom of my Heart and May God Bless you ......
Pei Yee
Sunday, April 3, 2011
SIgh.............
Its been a wonderful day for me to enjoy my space and my life as always with the company of my lovely friends around me. Voila!!! its been long since i had a hours talk with mel on the phone. I am glad that today I manage to call her and spoke to her for quite a long bit but still haven set new Record of 5 hours straight phone call talk on the phone with the next day we have Exam.
The evening I had Salad for my dinner and some chinese Noodles meanwhile facing the Computer facebook, world vision, and also Email respond. Brilliant.
In the Night we were all having family time and we were all watching American Idol Together. Surprisingly mum says that all of them have beautiful voices. hahaha....
Finish with American Idol.... went in to the Room and shut down PC.
Checking on my phone I have notice two missed call.
I return the first call and sometimes in my mind i do wonder how long do i have to live with the temper like that. Most time I have friends talking in a same frequency and this is the way that I use to talk. Mel, Kat, Wei Wei, Chung, Yasir, Aalif, ..... all of them very enjoyed the talk and stimulates the mind. Is it wrong for my happiness and feeling to affect people's emotion. Why do people just shut down others world when they just feel that they need those kind of Attention when I am in a happy mood. Wonder if those are a crime.
Is just sad that I have to be in a situation like this. I just wish I had the ability to have not much emotionally Attach. But every time when this happen it makes me feel the pain i had been through.
To Be honest, I am not as strong as I show myself to the world. I am just who I am. My happiness is the only thing that I cherish so much. When I am down deeply, I don't share much. I just hope ..... Please allow me to move on.............. I seriously HATE IT>..........................
pei yee.
The evening I had Salad for my dinner and some chinese Noodles meanwhile facing the Computer facebook, world vision, and also Email respond. Brilliant.
In the Night we were all having family time and we were all watching American Idol Together. Surprisingly mum says that all of them have beautiful voices. hahaha....
Finish with American Idol.... went in to the Room and shut down PC.
Checking on my phone I have notice two missed call.
I return the first call and sometimes in my mind i do wonder how long do i have to live with the temper like that. Most time I have friends talking in a same frequency and this is the way that I use to talk. Mel, Kat, Wei Wei, Chung, Yasir, Aalif, ..... all of them very enjoyed the talk and stimulates the mind. Is it wrong for my happiness and feeling to affect people's emotion. Why do people just shut down others world when they just feel that they need those kind of Attention when I am in a happy mood. Wonder if those are a crime.
Is just sad that I have to be in a situation like this. I just wish I had the ability to have not much emotionally Attach. But every time when this happen it makes me feel the pain i had been through.
To Be honest, I am not as strong as I show myself to the world. I am just who I am. My happiness is the only thing that I cherish so much. When I am down deeply, I don't share much. I just hope ..... Please allow me to move on.............. I seriously HATE IT>..........................
pei yee.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
To A Friend With Love
Staying by my side,
Knowing me more alike,
Telling me the truth,
Seeking me the path way through,
Handling emotions of whirlwind spin,
Courage that I receive is greatest level of top Alpine,
Never stops, never give up, and always positive thinker,
Educate me to a place of Mount Everest,
You are down, As time for a moment,
Is my turn to standby your side,
A friend of a precious jewel mine I have found,
Stay strong of all,
As to you with all my heart I have for you.
I dedicate this Poem to my best of friend.......... MELISSA KOH KYE YING. Thank you for always being there for me, guide me, gossips with me and Teach me so many new things in life. Greatest Friendship of all.............
Knowing me more alike,
Telling me the truth,
Seeking me the path way through,
Handling emotions of whirlwind spin,
Courage that I receive is greatest level of top Alpine,
Never stops, never give up, and always positive thinker,
Educate me to a place of Mount Everest,
You are down, As time for a moment,
Is my turn to standby your side,
A friend of a precious jewel mine I have found,
Stay strong of all,
As to you with all my heart I have for you.
I dedicate this Poem to my best of friend.......... MELISSA KOH KYE YING. Thank you for always being there for me, guide me, gossips with me and Teach me so many new things in life. Greatest Friendship of all.............
Perfect Day with Learning to laugh with my Group!
The evening was hilarious as we all do not know what we are all laughing at. It shows a picture which I find it not so funny but just a picture. As we were asked by the lecturer that is Funny and why are we not laughing at it.
The whole group decided to laugh and not knowing what we are laughing at. Perfect Laughing Stock.
I had my conversation with my Brother Chung. Well said and well describe as we are all going to meet out tomorrow. Chung, Shin Yee, Kathrine, and Me. perfect 4.
I miss having endless conversation with Chung as he speaks so nice Cantonese to me and I enjoyed so much of it. He is the only friend that speaks so much of Cantonese to me and Both of us were Fluent in it.
As for the Quote, Being Tease Most time in class were all in English but Being Tease by me is always in Cantonese... I find this verse very Meaningful to me.
Pei Yee.
The whole group decided to laugh and not knowing what we are laughing at. Perfect Laughing Stock.
I had my conversation with my Brother Chung. Well said and well describe as we are all going to meet out tomorrow. Chung, Shin Yee, Kathrine, and Me. perfect 4.
I miss having endless conversation with Chung as he speaks so nice Cantonese to me and I enjoyed so much of it. He is the only friend that speaks so much of Cantonese to me and Both of us were Fluent in it.
As for the Quote, Being Tease Most time in class were all in English but Being Tease by me is always in Cantonese... I find this verse very Meaningful to me.
Pei Yee.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Inspiration.........
Anywhere I go I still hear,
Anywhere I have Been to my Tears,
To a place where I Belong Right Here,
Being there for me to Fight the Fear,
Holding back my Tear in my Eyes,
You lift up my life through my precious mind,
Always the person I could fall back when I am on Wine,
As you are the Most Precious person I could Find on the big wide line,
Being part of my life mean so true,
Through the roughness of the Ocean wave,
Right on the Shore right now,
Thank you for the love you have for me....
Dedicate this Poem to MY BEST FRIEND..... Melissa Koh.... and Also My Brother, Chung, My Sister Kathrine and Wei Wei, and also Close Friends...... Thank you for making my each day so special and making it so happy. You are something that God have shown me the Way!!!
Love you all So much.
Pei Yee.
Anywhere I have Been to my Tears,
To a place where I Belong Right Here,
Being there for me to Fight the Fear,
Holding back my Tear in my Eyes,
You lift up my life through my precious mind,
Always the person I could fall back when I am on Wine,
As you are the Most Precious person I could Find on the big wide line,
Being part of my life mean so true,
Through the roughness of the Ocean wave,
Right on the Shore right now,
Thank you for the love you have for me....
Dedicate this Poem to MY BEST FRIEND..... Melissa Koh.... and Also My Brother, Chung, My Sister Kathrine and Wei Wei, and also Close Friends...... Thank you for making my each day so special and making it so happy. You are something that God have shown me the Way!!!
Love you all So much.
Pei Yee.
Monday, March 7, 2011
My Faith, My Lord, My Journey
If i Follow the Star,
I will Find my precious Stone,
If I Ever make a choice,
I Find you ever Last,
You have been the Sun,
When I was Lost,
Till then I hear a Voice,
I Know you Held me Close,
Holding on to Trust,
I feel safe and Strong,
To you with love and faith,
My Lovely Lord of Love,
You are the Guiding World,
My love be the One,
With the Heart I believe in,
Buddha Live on in My heart.
I will Find my precious Stone,
If I Ever make a choice,
I Find you ever Last,
You have been the Sun,
When I was Lost,
Till then I hear a Voice,
I Know you Held me Close,
Holding on to Trust,
I feel safe and Strong,
To you with love and faith,
My Lovely Lord of Love,
You are the Guiding World,
My love be the One,
With the Heart I believe in,
Buddha Live on in My heart.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Busy Two Days......
Day 1. (Saturday)
First and foremost I would like to say I am Happy to be back in Museum Volunteers Malaysia. I Feel so proud that I have been serving with the Museum for 3 years now. How wonderful is that. Through this 3 years life have been a roller-coaster since. Exciting life i am leading.
Also after the first discover of me being Emcee for the Children Group back in December 2010, I am now constantly being invited to become the Emcee for the Museum Volunteer Group. I am Honored that they give me the chance and also Proud of myself for being where I am now. AMAZING RACE!!!!
With the Opportunity given here as I have my own space, I will narrate my life as Museum Volunteer. It first started of from a Newspaper which capture my eyes on it. I remember it was the First week of September when I fist do the Training for the First time. I was very Lucky being able to participate for those Orang Asli Talk, Peranakan understanding, and also Artifacts information. As months past so quickly, I finally graduated. Being Involved with my First Children Tour For the Gardens International School, is the best ever fun time I had. Onwards that moment, I have been handling the children group.
With so Many Practice of public speaking, I have great opportunity to explore how far I can go and this actually have build the self confidence In me. I did not expect my self to be where i am today. Enrolling in the diploma course I was happy. i know this path will take me far in life. Is a passage way where I crawl in slowly to find my lime light of life. In the two years there are so many things happened in my life and I know that will only makes me Stronger and grow up. Discovering that I was good in giving Public Speeches started of when i Handle an event Organize by my Team Back in Diploma years. It is sort of Project that we have to handle and with that we will have Points. From a small scale of Event I went on to a bigger scale of Event which is the Bario Charity Night Dinner. I did Well I suppose.
With that There is one day, Museum was seeking guide to help out for the Children Group Event and so happen I was there. There are prizes to give out, but no one wants to hold the Microphone. As time is going, Children Definitely have no Patience in waiting, What Else, I Grab on to the Microphone, and speak as though I have been speaking for a Thousand Years. hahahaha.... That was when MVM discover I have the Ability in doing So.
Thank you Dato' Ibrahim, Pn. Mahani, Encik Jamil, Karen Loh and her Team for giving me this Wonderful opportunity. I value this so much as not many people will get this chance and experience. It is a True Blessings from God that MVM was a Right Move for me to Joined and MVM was the Pit Stop to Inspire me.
Day 2. (Sunday)
First time driving to Sunday Market for my cousins. So So Fun..... hahaha.... and we all have chat, Breakfast and Lunch Together. So Fun.
Miss all my cousin brother and thank them for having me to Help them out. I did not know they pay me RM50 just for a Day.
Thank you 2nd Piu Ko for the Lunch and 3rd Piu Ko (Wai Wai) for the Breakfast.
Love you all.
Wonderful Life.
Pei Yee.
First and foremost I would like to say I am Happy to be back in Museum Volunteers Malaysia. I Feel so proud that I have been serving with the Museum for 3 years now. How wonderful is that. Through this 3 years life have been a roller-coaster since. Exciting life i am leading.
Also after the first discover of me being Emcee for the Children Group back in December 2010, I am now constantly being invited to become the Emcee for the Museum Volunteer Group. I am Honored that they give me the chance and also Proud of myself for being where I am now. AMAZING RACE!!!!
With the Opportunity given here as I have my own space, I will narrate my life as Museum Volunteer. It first started of from a Newspaper which capture my eyes on it. I remember it was the First week of September when I fist do the Training for the First time. I was very Lucky being able to participate for those Orang Asli Talk, Peranakan understanding, and also Artifacts information. As months past so quickly, I finally graduated. Being Involved with my First Children Tour For the Gardens International School, is the best ever fun time I had. Onwards that moment, I have been handling the children group.
With so Many Practice of public speaking, I have great opportunity to explore how far I can go and this actually have build the self confidence In me. I did not expect my self to be where i am today. Enrolling in the diploma course I was happy. i know this path will take me far in life. Is a passage way where I crawl in slowly to find my lime light of life. In the two years there are so many things happened in my life and I know that will only makes me Stronger and grow up. Discovering that I was good in giving Public Speeches started of when i Handle an event Organize by my Team Back in Diploma years. It is sort of Project that we have to handle and with that we will have Points. From a small scale of Event I went on to a bigger scale of Event which is the Bario Charity Night Dinner. I did Well I suppose.
With that There is one day, Museum was seeking guide to help out for the Children Group Event and so happen I was there. There are prizes to give out, but no one wants to hold the Microphone. As time is going, Children Definitely have no Patience in waiting, What Else, I Grab on to the Microphone, and speak as though I have been speaking for a Thousand Years. hahahaha.... That was when MVM discover I have the Ability in doing So.
Thank you Dato' Ibrahim, Pn. Mahani, Encik Jamil, Karen Loh and her Team for giving me this Wonderful opportunity. I value this so much as not many people will get this chance and experience. It is a True Blessings from God that MVM was a Right Move for me to Joined and MVM was the Pit Stop to Inspire me.
Day 2. (Sunday)
First time driving to Sunday Market for my cousins. So So Fun..... hahaha.... and we all have chat, Breakfast and Lunch Together. So Fun.
Miss all my cousin brother and thank them for having me to Help them out. I did not know they pay me RM50 just for a Day.
Thank you 2nd Piu Ko for the Lunch and 3rd Piu Ko (Wai Wai) for the Breakfast.
Love you all.
Wonderful Life.
Pei Yee.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Who Am I...?? I wonder... What Will I Be??
Ooppss Readers, I have been resting my fingers on this blog for few days now. Anyway, Nice Headline in my Head today.
Over the past few days, I have been busy with School Stuff and also friends Meet up. School stuff makes me happy as there are so many new friends that soon to be a memory lane one. As for Meeting up is always with my Ji Mui and my Brother. Katherine, Wei Wei and Brother Chung. Lovely.
I missed them so so much and I did think so hard about all the good moments when I wasn't talking. Wei Wei did make all of us realize something in life. We always have to take the trouble to fixed it till it is what we want. Every time when we are in dilemma, Wei Wei will come in to the picture and she will always share with us their Idea.
Sometimes with all the question and learning and answer, I still asked myself what else that i need in order to move towards the Goal. I wonder also. I want to know what will my life be. where will it take me. so so many question.
So much to think about.... SIGH!!!!!!!
EMO............. Week.
Pei Yee.
Over the past few days, I have been busy with School Stuff and also friends Meet up. School stuff makes me happy as there are so many new friends that soon to be a memory lane one. As for Meeting up is always with my Ji Mui and my Brother. Katherine, Wei Wei and Brother Chung. Lovely.
I missed them so so much and I did think so hard about all the good moments when I wasn't talking. Wei Wei did make all of us realize something in life. We always have to take the trouble to fixed it till it is what we want. Every time when we are in dilemma, Wei Wei will come in to the picture and she will always share with us their Idea.
Sometimes with all the question and learning and answer, I still asked myself what else that i need in order to move towards the Goal. I wonder also. I want to know what will my life be. where will it take me. so so many question.
So much to think about.... SIGH!!!!!!!
EMO............. Week.
Pei Yee.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
I will miss my Sis.....
Well with all the complaint and argument that we have, now she is leaving for Malacca for two Years Service there in the Government General Hospital In Malacca.
The 6 years when she was in Overseas, I miss her and now she will be leaving for Malacca. Thank Goodness I have Skype now, and I can talk to her More.
With her love and support and guide, I will make her Proud of me. She is Very supportive in anything I do and she motivates me to Love my Job and Skill that I have.
Dear Sis,
I will miss you.... and I hope you can take care of yourself when I am not there. Don't worry as soon as Uni break I will travel down to Malacca to see you and spend some time with you there and also Cooked for you.
Will miss you k.
Love you.
Pei Yee.
The 6 years when she was in Overseas, I miss her and now she will be leaving for Malacca. Thank Goodness I have Skype now, and I can talk to her More.
With her love and support and guide, I will make her Proud of me. She is Very supportive in anything I do and she motivates me to Love my Job and Skill that I have.
Dear Sis,
I will miss you.... and I hope you can take care of yourself when I am not there. Don't worry as soon as Uni break I will travel down to Malacca to see you and spend some time with you there and also Cooked for you.
Will miss you k.
Love you.
Pei Yee.
Friday, February 25, 2011
Meet Up with MEL!!! MELCATKOH
I went to University yesterday just for a Short while to collect my timetable and to know my Grouping. It was so exciting to see faces coming down to collect the Timetable. Hmm... In my mind... it was all nice and new and i think it would be a whole new beginning from it. I am just hoping for the best.
Before everything finished, Vliam and I left the Hall and Proceed to the Photo Studio for the Photo taken for Student ID. Thank God Not Many People. hahaha. Don't have to Wait.
Down pour like never rain before and Finally got on the Car and Drove all the Way to mel place and He is definitely a Good Driver. hahaha NEVER lost for the First time driving to Melissa's House. Phew!!
Pick mel up and we all head off to Summit to Have noodles and Rice. With the two around, I sat there so quiet as the more I speak they will tease me. Opps.... Mel, my awesome friend, I miss outing with you. Thank GOODNESS they go play the Gun Game at the Game Centre.
By looking at those Smile and Joy this brings me a Happy Happy Day. O.... Aaron.. Thank you for letting me have your GF........ hahaha....
With all games they finish playing.... we head of to BlackCanyon Coffee House and we seat there for So many Hours.....TALK TALK TALK...............
Mel Mel.... Thank you always for Being a Great Friend, Companion, and Sister to Me... Very much Appreciated with no words can Define.
Pei Yee.
Before everything finished, Vliam and I left the Hall and Proceed to the Photo Studio for the Photo taken for Student ID. Thank God Not Many People. hahaha. Don't have to Wait.
Down pour like never rain before and Finally got on the Car and Drove all the Way to mel place and He is definitely a Good Driver. hahaha NEVER lost for the First time driving to Melissa's House. Phew!!
Pick mel up and we all head off to Summit to Have noodles and Rice. With the two around, I sat there so quiet as the more I speak they will tease me. Opps.... Mel, my awesome friend, I miss outing with you. Thank GOODNESS they go play the Gun Game at the Game Centre.
By looking at those Smile and Joy this brings me a Happy Happy Day. O.... Aaron.. Thank you for letting me have your GF........ hahaha....
With all games they finish playing.... we head of to BlackCanyon Coffee House and we seat there for So many Hours.....TALK TALK TALK...............
Mel Mel.... Thank you always for Being a Great Friend, Companion, and Sister to Me... Very much Appreciated with no words can Define.
Pei Yee.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Focusing with a Heart with full of Uncertainty
The Semester have begin and I am feeling a bit of Everything that makes out a Confused Feeling for me. I know what I really want to study and pursue but on the other hand I miss my friends so so much. Katherine, Wei Wei, i really miss you two girls so much as for the Past two years you bring out the strength and Ability in me that me myself Did not even know about it. You two have a allow and given me all those Beautiful and precious moment in my Two Year of Diploma which makes me so Comfortable about.
As i choose this path and walkway, I really do not know who I am going to Meet and going to Deal with. I am scare, afraid, confuse and i might scare that I regret the decision I make. I do not Know will i be able to do all this without you guys by my side. There is something about this 3 of us for me, I feel the Energy and Wei Wei Keep Telling me just Don't Give up in anything you do and if you use your heart and soul to do something, Even its a Failure it wouldn't be that Bad though. Thank you Katherine and Wei Wei.
My Brother Chung, I will definitely Miss you Bro. Thank you for helping me out all the time and I appreciate it deep down. I will definitely Miss you. No one will ever speak Cantonese to me like that. Thank you so much for everything that you have done for me over the Two Years. You are always the Proud Brother I always have.
Deep down i am afraid whether i can handle things Well and will i ever hurt anyone. I am kind of Worried. There are a lot of Confusion pouring in and I am so confuse now. As now i am alone and I will be doing things by myself and there will not be anything I can Trust now at the Moment for Responsibility. It is so difficult.
GOD here your humble child asking for strength to pull through this Two Years. Thank you Lord Buddha for the Strength you gave me for the diploma's years. May the Light Of Buddha Continue on shining Upon Me. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu.
Pei Yee
As i choose this path and walkway, I really do not know who I am going to Meet and going to Deal with. I am scare, afraid, confuse and i might scare that I regret the decision I make. I do not Know will i be able to do all this without you guys by my side. There is something about this 3 of us for me, I feel the Energy and Wei Wei Keep Telling me just Don't Give up in anything you do and if you use your heart and soul to do something, Even its a Failure it wouldn't be that Bad though. Thank you Katherine and Wei Wei.
My Brother Chung, I will definitely Miss you Bro. Thank you for helping me out all the time and I appreciate it deep down. I will definitely Miss you. No one will ever speak Cantonese to me like that. Thank you so much for everything that you have done for me over the Two Years. You are always the Proud Brother I always have.
Deep down i am afraid whether i can handle things Well and will i ever hurt anyone. I am kind of Worried. There are a lot of Confusion pouring in and I am so confuse now. As now i am alone and I will be doing things by myself and there will not be anything I can Trust now at the Moment for Responsibility. It is so difficult.
GOD here your humble child asking for strength to pull through this Two Years. Thank you Lord Buddha for the Strength you gave me for the diploma's years. May the Light Of Buddha Continue on shining Upon Me. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu.
Pei Yee
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Excited.......... New adventure, Drama, and People that i will be meeting......
Today will be the first day of my day officially doing my degree. A day which i have never dream of coming towards me all this while with all the AMAZING result i get from Primary to secondary and to A'levels, I suppose is more of like the OMG thing. NIGHTMARE.
I am so happy as I manage to walk and climb slowly despite all the failure that i have meet and I would like to Thank my Parents and Sister who always be there for me and when i fall they stretch their hands to me and lift me up again. Most of all the Guidance and Words of Buddha that I always have you with me in my Wisdom of Life.
Today will be the beginning of all the Hard work that I have Strive for Many Years to achieve to this Level. Just the Last Level and I will work hard to achieve the Best I could.
All new Beginning..... What is Going to Happen I don't know.
Will update more about my situation and Group when I am back tomorrow!!!
Good Night For Now!!
Pei Yee.
I am so happy as I manage to walk and climb slowly despite all the failure that i have meet and I would like to Thank my Parents and Sister who always be there for me and when i fall they stretch their hands to me and lift me up again. Most of all the Guidance and Words of Buddha that I always have you with me in my Wisdom of Life.
Today will be the beginning of all the Hard work that I have Strive for Many Years to achieve to this Level. Just the Last Level and I will work hard to achieve the Best I could.
All new Beginning..... What is Going to Happen I don't know.
Will update more about my situation and Group when I am back tomorrow!!!
Good Night For Now!!
Pei Yee.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Blissful sleep.. and Wake up with a busy morning.
The yesterday's evening was good and We all had great time and I had a pillow talk to Mel at night. I was happy that I could not asked for more that God has sent Her to me. Mel you are Awsome!! The way you are Meliboo........... Miss you more than ever Gir....
As days move on, I can now understand certain things happen for a reason. It is amazing now that i had a wonderful life. Loving parents which i cannot asked for more, a very Fun loving sister though we do quarrel a lot.
I have Wonderful, sincere, Ego, Sarcastic, Brainstorming and Risk Taker friend..... MEL always.............. Great great Mel......and I am still Finding for more. Will let you know the Something you all do know about my Best Friend here....... She Completes the Package........
Mel Like I always tell you... How grateful and Thankful that I found you as a Friend. I miss you....cause you Live so far away from me. You Should get a house Somewhere in Ampang Together.... and Then Next Door.!!!! Can Gossip and Cerita Every Single Day!!!! It will be the Best thing In my Life!!!! Pheewww Hoooooooooo
Pei Yee
As days move on, I can now understand certain things happen for a reason. It is amazing now that i had a wonderful life. Loving parents which i cannot asked for more, a very Fun loving sister though we do quarrel a lot.
I have Wonderful, sincere, Ego, Sarcastic, Brainstorming and Risk Taker friend..... MEL always.............. Great great Mel......and I am still Finding for more. Will let you know the Something you all do know about my Best Friend here....... She Completes the Package........
Mel Like I always tell you... How grateful and Thankful that I found you as a Friend. I miss you....cause you Live so far away from me. You Should get a house Somewhere in Ampang Together.... and Then Next Door.!!!! Can Gossip and Cerita Every Single Day!!!! It will be the Best thing In my Life!!!! Pheewww Hoooooooooo
Pei Yee
Monday, February 14, 2011
Happy Valentine...... / SINGLETINE.................
Wishing all my loves ones..... Happy Valentines day. LOVELY.
I am all single this year as such new adventure and moment will come into my life. Great Rabbit year to start with.
There are some question left in my head.
What are the difference between :
Serious Relationship and Non Serious. ??
CONFUSING
I am all single this year as such new adventure and moment will come into my life. Great Rabbit year to start with.
There are some question left in my head.
What are the difference between :
Serious Relationship and Non Serious. ??
CONFUSING
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Its Been Busy Since....... the First Day of Chinese New Year 2011
Busy Busy.... Fireworks are all around.
Just had the Farewell BBQ session with the Family. My Aunt is Flying home Today at 14.30 Hrs. Going to Miss her for another one whole year.
There some hick-up in someway.... but manage to pull through. Today is my nephew's Birthday. I have a Great time With him! Celebrated his Birthday although he is not to well. Happy Birthday Kye Ming.
Tomorrow will be my Graduation which I think no one is excited about it and It makes me have no mood of going For it. I don't know why. Not to say i am not Grateful but Sometimes my expectation on somethings are very high. To the best I know I hope what ever I do they will just know it one Day!
Materials really buy people's mind which I could say I Hate it the Most. But I have got no choice but to Follow the Way of it.
God, May you guide me through this Journey with Smooth Sailing and Let me Be successful to fulfill the Promises and Duty to the Nation and Community of my people. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu!
Good Night.
Love Always
Pei Yee.
Just had the Farewell BBQ session with the Family. My Aunt is Flying home Today at 14.30 Hrs. Going to Miss her for another one whole year.
There some hick-up in someway.... but manage to pull through. Today is my nephew's Birthday. I have a Great time With him! Celebrated his Birthday although he is not to well. Happy Birthday Kye Ming.
Tomorrow will be my Graduation which I think no one is excited about it and It makes me have no mood of going For it. I don't know why. Not to say i am not Grateful but Sometimes my expectation on somethings are very high. To the best I know I hope what ever I do they will just know it one Day!
Materials really buy people's mind which I could say I Hate it the Most. But I have got no choice but to Follow the Way of it.
God, May you guide me through this Journey with Smooth Sailing and Let me Be successful to fulfill the Promises and Duty to the Nation and Community of my people. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu!
Good Night.
Love Always
Pei Yee.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!! Happy Chinese New Year!!!
Gong Hei Fatt Choy to all Readers.....
Sorry for the Delay of my Updates.
I have been Busy since the 29th of the Lunar Calendar till now and this will be On Going till the 15th Of the Lunar month!!
I had a Great Reunion with my Family on the 29th day. So Noisy that Practically the voice of our Family Cover the Entire Restaurant just having 10 person. This is what every Chinese New Year I am looking forward to. Is just Amazing How nice the Feeling is by having them all Together and make those Noise.
There goes the First Dinner.
On the Exact Reunion Dinner, I have it with my Sister's Fiancee/ Husband Side family Dinner Together at Ritz - Carlton, Kuala Lumpur. Together with others family Members and Friends. Laugh Laugh Laugh ....... So Funny By having them Around. With the End of Touching 11.30 we left the Restaurant and Move to My Ku Ma's Place... Another Time Laugh Laugh.....
There goes the Second Dinner...
Cho-Yat ( 1st day of CNY )
Went down to Ku Ma's House had Breakfast and Then Gamble till the end and still not finish and Continue At night. Meanwhile in the Afternoon we went Visiting Mum's Relative in JinJang / Kepong and then Head Home Straight for a sleep and then Went over to Meng Sok Sok's House Five minutes Drive only!!! There we Gamble until 1.00 am in the Morning then only Go Home!!! Wonderful and Great!!!
More Updates.... COming Soon..!!!
Pei Yee.
Sorry for the Delay of my Updates.
I have been Busy since the 29th of the Lunar Calendar till now and this will be On Going till the 15th Of the Lunar month!!
I had a Great Reunion with my Family on the 29th day. So Noisy that Practically the voice of our Family Cover the Entire Restaurant just having 10 person. This is what every Chinese New Year I am looking forward to. Is just Amazing How nice the Feeling is by having them all Together and make those Noise.
There goes the First Dinner.
On the Exact Reunion Dinner, I have it with my Sister's Fiancee/ Husband Side family Dinner Together at Ritz - Carlton, Kuala Lumpur. Together with others family Members and Friends. Laugh Laugh Laugh ....... So Funny By having them Around. With the End of Touching 11.30 we left the Restaurant and Move to My Ku Ma's Place... Another Time Laugh Laugh.....
There goes the Second Dinner...
Cho-Yat ( 1st day of CNY )
Went down to Ku Ma's House had Breakfast and Then Gamble till the end and still not finish and Continue At night. Meanwhile in the Afternoon we went Visiting Mum's Relative in JinJang / Kepong and then Head Home Straight for a sleep and then Went over to Meng Sok Sok's House Five minutes Drive only!!! There we Gamble until 1.00 am in the Morning then only Go Home!!! Wonderful and Great!!!
More Updates.... COming Soon..!!!
Pei Yee.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Grilled Dory Fish with Herbs
Grilled Dory Fish.
Lea Perrins Sauce/ Soy Sauce (Asia)
Chilli Powder/ Curry Powder (To Give Color)
Pepper
Garlic Powder/ Garlic (1 Cloves)
Mixed Herb (Oregano/ Thyme..Etc)
Marinate it together. Place in the Refrigerator for minimum of One Hour.
Grilled at 170 Degree. 30 Minutes
(Add Grated Cheese/ Parmesan Cheese to Taste) Baked it Together. rice and Fish to melt the CHeese!!
Serve with Potato / White Rice.
For my own I like adding 3 drops of thick black Soy Sauce to the rice.
When you Grilled the Fish there will some Sauce coming out. Mixed with the Rice. Yum...
Try it and Let me Know! C'est Parfait!! Bon Appetite....
Do Comment.
Lovely!
Lea Perrins Sauce/ Soy Sauce (Asia)
Chilli Powder/ Curry Powder (To Give Color)
Pepper
Garlic Powder/ Garlic (1 Cloves)
Mixed Herb (Oregano/ Thyme..Etc)
Marinate it together. Place in the Refrigerator for minimum of One Hour.
Grilled at 170 Degree. 30 Minutes
(Add Grated Cheese/ Parmesan Cheese to Taste) Baked it Together. rice and Fish to melt the CHeese!!
Serve with Potato / White Rice.
For my own I like adding 3 drops of thick black Soy Sauce to the rice.
When you Grilled the Fish there will some Sauce coming out. Mixed with the Rice. Yum...
Try it and Let me Know! C'est Parfait!! Bon Appetite....
Do Comment.
Lovely!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Contractor and Also Legal Clerk Personal In Home!
All I do is Sitting at home Watching the Contractor mAn do the Job and tell him where is the Place and How to make the way We wanted it to be..... Sigh!!!!
At night come home.... If got People Buy Car I do the Sales and Purchase Agreement. Sigh!!
So Sleepy now!! Mel Take Things easy K... Bitchy is Something good At times where people give you back some Respect you know! Be Positive. We are girl.... and Girls are Complicated stuff where Man are not there to Understand us at times.
Wink!
Pei yee.
At night come home.... If got People Buy Car I do the Sales and Purchase Agreement. Sigh!!
So Sleepy now!! Mel Take Things easy K... Bitchy is Something good At times where people give you back some Respect you know! Be Positive. We are girl.... and Girls are Complicated stuff where Man are not there to Understand us at times.
Wink!
Pei yee.
Monday, January 24, 2011
I cried................. The Major Crying in 2011
After all the effort and plan that we make, things just won't workout the Way we wanted it to be.
Going down to Malacca it seems to be the worst trip. I cried so much and so bad after the trip because I do it Sincerely but no one appreciate. There are many times where No one knows I am down or happy. Being pampered all the time and just make the worst scene ever... and she get away with all.
Is she that helpless. Sometimes I do wonder. With all the time I have I would Rather spend on my Solo Vacation trips that i want to go so much. But the Time i have now mainly spend in home due to the Renovation on going. I bet it will somehow be an empty promises and it will just be it. I told them about trips that i wanted so much but They still think i should go UK instead and if not that Australia.
If you asked me what Country I would like to visit, I would first say is Hawaii (The Origin of the Red Indians), Sri Lanka (Where Buddha Journey there), Inner Tibet (Full of Rich and Beautiful Culture),I like going Places where I can Just relax and have Fun!! Not Shopping!!!
Anyway.... Life is always full of unexpected moments i suppose. Sometimes i do wonder what is important? Craziness in life is a drive wheel of Fortune that ahead of you.
Going down to Malacca it seems to be the worst trip. I cried so much and so bad after the trip because I do it Sincerely but no one appreciate. There are many times where No one knows I am down or happy. Being pampered all the time and just make the worst scene ever... and she get away with all.
Is she that helpless. Sometimes I do wonder. With all the time I have I would Rather spend on my Solo Vacation trips that i want to go so much. But the Time i have now mainly spend in home due to the Renovation on going. I bet it will somehow be an empty promises and it will just be it. I told them about trips that i wanted so much but They still think i should go UK instead and if not that Australia.
If you asked me what Country I would like to visit, I would first say is Hawaii (The Origin of the Red Indians), Sri Lanka (Where Buddha Journey there), Inner Tibet (Full of Rich and Beautiful Culture),I like going Places where I can Just relax and have Fun!! Not Shopping!!!
Anyway.... Life is always full of unexpected moments i suppose. Sometimes i do wonder what is important? Craziness in life is a drive wheel of Fortune that ahead of you.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Massive Saturday!!
Today i woke up at about 10.30 in the Morning where the constructions of the Drilling starts... Noises. With the Usual Routine I will jumped off the bed and move straight to collect the Lap top to the bed. I will then sit there to go on my Email All three of them and also FACEBOOK. Never LIVE without Facebook. Hmm..... Till then I was on the bed till 11.30 and then i went to shower and change. It was Already 12 noon. I left the house and went straight for Eyebrow threading for the First time. Hell yeah.... is so Fast that i did not know it... its over within 10 minutes.
Next stop get my sister's bag fixed. I have waited One Hour. Then went home to rest and picked up my Shampoo and head Off to the Saloon to do my Hair.
Coming Home... it was already Dinner time. Went straight down and Eat. Continue the Cleaning and then Proceed with the Shower.
While cleaning the House, my dad and I had an argument about the placement of the display as the Glass is Shabby and not Stable for all i know. I told my dad not to place there and he Insisted and say its safe. I told him to remove it and he did not. Of no where I lost my temper and I sort of said something like what if the glass break in a High Volume. I feel bad somehow. But I just Don't want accidents to happen. Is not nice or Fun. Pa pa, I am sorry.... i just want you to know that I love you so much that I am Worried about you. I always Love you.....
Till night comes... My mum neg me for Complaining so much about stuff that I have Done. I somehow feel Up sad because I have done so much for the family. Okie As in Not financially but time and Holiday sacrifice.
I love being Independent and do all the things by myself. But sometimes i do feel that being not knowing anything is nice cause... You will easily get attention because you are fragile.
Crazy day............. Somehow.... what do you guys think?? What does True Love Count... and Is it that hard to find a Soul Mate that can be your Life time partner.. Just a Wonder in Me!!
Pei Yee Soo
Next stop get my sister's bag fixed. I have waited One Hour. Then went home to rest and picked up my Shampoo and head Off to the Saloon to do my Hair.
Coming Home... it was already Dinner time. Went straight down and Eat. Continue the Cleaning and then Proceed with the Shower.
While cleaning the House, my dad and I had an argument about the placement of the display as the Glass is Shabby and not Stable for all i know. I told my dad not to place there and he Insisted and say its safe. I told him to remove it and he did not. Of no where I lost my temper and I sort of said something like what if the glass break in a High Volume. I feel bad somehow. But I just Don't want accidents to happen. Is not nice or Fun. Pa pa, I am sorry.... i just want you to know that I love you so much that I am Worried about you. I always Love you.....
Till night comes... My mum neg me for Complaining so much about stuff that I have Done. I somehow feel Up sad because I have done so much for the family. Okie As in Not financially but time and Holiday sacrifice.
I love being Independent and do all the things by myself. But sometimes i do feel that being not knowing anything is nice cause... You will easily get attention because you are fragile.
Crazy day............. Somehow.... what do you guys think?? What does True Love Count... and Is it that hard to find a Soul Mate that can be your Life time partner.. Just a Wonder in Me!!
Pei Yee Soo
Monday, January 17, 2011
A Tiramisu Makes Me Think!!
Beautiful sunday!! Mum manage to get my cousin to fixed up the Photograph of mine on the wall in my Room. Beautifully Done up.
In the evening my neighbor were making Tiramisu and she called my mum suddenly. SOS. Her cream Over Beat and become spoiled. Soon I followed my mum and went over to her place and help out. The tiramisu turns out nice.
During the Process of doing the Tiramisu, It makes me think a lot about those moment i had in Diploma time. I miss every single bit of the moment and makes me want to cry. I seriously do not know who will i meet in my new program and I miss and love the group that i am in actually.
Diploma years was the Sweetest Time of my life and will remain that way i suppose.
In the evening my neighbor were making Tiramisu and she called my mum suddenly. SOS. Her cream Over Beat and become spoiled. Soon I followed my mum and went over to her place and help out. The tiramisu turns out nice.
During the Process of doing the Tiramisu, It makes me think a lot about those moment i had in Diploma time. I miss every single bit of the moment and makes me want to cry. I seriously do not know who will i meet in my new program and I miss and love the group that i am in actually.
Diploma years was the Sweetest Time of my life and will remain that way i suppose.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Handbags and designer's Fever I have Got Myself Into~~~
Back then simple girl who do not know many designers... If I tell you I don't know LV and Prada is totally Liar liar pants on fire. I used to be a person which Carries any bag i see and i don't even bother to looked at Names. Sometimes Until the extend of my friends come up to me and Say "Hey looking Good With your New Designer Bag" (Which I have absolutely no clue that I am carrying one fake designer bag. I Know is Fake but I never knew they can say this " is the Latest Season and what not. ( Grinn Face ,Blur Face).
2011, a year that i foresee myself traveling this Journey alone (Okie As in there is No Relationship this Year). Somehow I felt that I have been Influence by my sister to Designers Stuff. (Is More of a OH NO thing) I Suppose. My Bank account is Going Empty. As there is Nice Bags and Beautiful stuff That I crave so much now. I feel so bad today. I told my mum that I wanted this particular Bag and she did not say no but she say Use the one i buy first and then Buy next time and without Knowing I said Mum the Bag your Bought is Too Fake. Mum i am so sorry. Seriously Deep down from my heart.
By words that she reply me today, she Said " Since when you become like one of those who care so much about the Branding." Immediately My mind Shut and I return to where I belong. As to reality, I am not working and My mum is paying my fees for Degree and I demand. I question myself. Is a lesson learn from here. I shall return and If I ever want Such Bag I will earn I pay them Myself. Sounds Better now.
It is really a FML thing. What did I get myself Into. Truly Sorry Mum. I love you Always. No Matter what.
Oh not to Forget.... LV I would like to apologize... Because is a Present from my Mother... I will love it and Use it. So Hope you are not Mad at me..!! (Winnk)
Again I talked this out to Mel, She was like saying... Ermm Probably is a Stop Production Line bag. and Insisting that is okie. Thank you so much for the Word.... change me!!
I suppose is OKie. Anyway I am in School ,............ It doesn't Matter. hahaha
Okie Listening to Me Talking Talking.....
A little Update about me.
Holiday started and I have been in the House Taking care of the Contractor Working and Sign Delivery Orders For My Parents. And Manage to Take a Road Trip down to Malacca with Meliboo and Shinyee to Surprise Chung Bro. Great Trip. Looking Forward Singapore...... and Penang....... All the Peranakan Places... and Origin... Proud to be.....it!!!
I am still sticking with the Solo Traveling plan. I am not sure when Will it Happen But I have the Faith that it will happen!! Adventure of my life!! Yay......
Good night to all Readers...........
Always Soo.
2011, a year that i foresee myself traveling this Journey alone (Okie As in there is No Relationship this Year). Somehow I felt that I have been Influence by my sister to Designers Stuff. (Is More of a OH NO thing) I Suppose. My Bank account is Going Empty. As there is Nice Bags and Beautiful stuff That I crave so much now. I feel so bad today. I told my mum that I wanted this particular Bag and she did not say no but she say Use the one i buy first and then Buy next time and without Knowing I said Mum the Bag your Bought is Too Fake. Mum i am so sorry. Seriously Deep down from my heart.
By words that she reply me today, she Said " Since when you become like one of those who care so much about the Branding." Immediately My mind Shut and I return to where I belong. As to reality, I am not working and My mum is paying my fees for Degree and I demand. I question myself. Is a lesson learn from here. I shall return and If I ever want Such Bag I will earn I pay them Myself. Sounds Better now.
It is really a FML thing. What did I get myself Into. Truly Sorry Mum. I love you Always. No Matter what.
Oh not to Forget.... LV I would like to apologize... Because is a Present from my Mother... I will love it and Use it. So Hope you are not Mad at me..!! (Winnk)
Again I talked this out to Mel, She was like saying... Ermm Probably is a Stop Production Line bag. and Insisting that is okie. Thank you so much for the Word.... change me!!
I suppose is OKie. Anyway I am in School ,............ It doesn't Matter. hahaha
Okie Listening to Me Talking Talking.....
A little Update about me.
Holiday started and I have been in the House Taking care of the Contractor Working and Sign Delivery Orders For My Parents. And Manage to Take a Road Trip down to Malacca with Meliboo and Shinyee to Surprise Chung Bro. Great Trip. Looking Forward Singapore...... and Penang....... All the Peranakan Places... and Origin... Proud to be.....it!!!
I am still sticking with the Solo Traveling plan. I am not sure when Will it Happen But I have the Faith that it will happen!! Adventure of my life!! Yay......
Good night to all Readers...........
Always Soo.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Malacca Adventure............................
Malacca, History and heritage Site..... Nice...
On monday i travel to Malacca with Mel and Shin yee. Its a trip that have been planned for some time now. Well First to enjoy the Malacca Food and also To bring Surprise to my Brother Chung A.k.a (Ah Tiong) Hahahahaha.
Journey to Malacca was nice and we travel Smooth Journey down to Malacca. Upon Arriving, Bro was excited about the Present then he would Receive. As I told him the Present was Heavy and weights a lot. The surprise was nice as Bro misses her so so so Bad!!!!
The first night we had, Crepes Cake's at Nadeje's and then Followed by Nyonya Cuisine, Eating SeeHam and Lala at the Lorong.... and Satay Celup at Capitol.
Whoa.... Next day, I have Chicken Rice Ball at chung wah Kopitiam and the adventure of my discomfort stomach begins. Oh No.... Vomited and diarrhea soon Follow by Fever. Soon a good rest,and in the evening we went to eat Ikan Bakar.... at Bachik. Is also my first Experience eating Nasi Lemak Without Sambal! Is something Rarely Its Happening. haha.........
We went River Cruising and then we went to Eat Wantan Mee Before Go Home!!!!!
In the Morning Pack and then Leave for Breakfast!!!
Nice NicEE!!!!!
Great Trip!!!! And Malaca is Always Beautiful!!!!! with Food!!!!
On monday i travel to Malacca with Mel and Shin yee. Its a trip that have been planned for some time now. Well First to enjoy the Malacca Food and also To bring Surprise to my Brother Chung A.k.a (Ah Tiong) Hahahahaha.
Journey to Malacca was nice and we travel Smooth Journey down to Malacca. Upon Arriving, Bro was excited about the Present then he would Receive. As I told him the Present was Heavy and weights a lot. The surprise was nice as Bro misses her so so so Bad!!!!
The first night we had, Crepes Cake's at Nadeje's and then Followed by Nyonya Cuisine, Eating SeeHam and Lala at the Lorong.... and Satay Celup at Capitol.
Whoa.... Next day, I have Chicken Rice Ball at chung wah Kopitiam and the adventure of my discomfort stomach begins. Oh No.... Vomited and diarrhea soon Follow by Fever. Soon a good rest,and in the evening we went to eat Ikan Bakar.... at Bachik. Is also my first Experience eating Nasi Lemak Without Sambal! Is something Rarely Its Happening. haha.........
We went River Cruising and then we went to Eat Wantan Mee Before Go Home!!!!!
In the Morning Pack and then Leave for Breakfast!!!
Nice NicEE!!!!!
Great Trip!!!! And Malaca is Always Beautiful!!!!! with Food!!!!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Happy New Year 2011
Happy New Year Everyone.
On new Year Eve I went over to my friend's place to watch the Fireworks and also to have dinner with them. Not many of us Total 5 of us but nice Chilling out time.
I have been on Shopping Marathon despite the Sales is going to end.. Manage to Purchase a lot from Dorothy Perkins, and Some from Niichi fashion Design. Thank goodness my cousin and I are on our Uni term Break Before continue back in school.
For now... My New year Resolution is to Achieve good Grades and Hopefully to get scholarship from Big Organization!
Sometimes I wonder....... What it would be if I have gone to UK and Study?? Hmm... anyway life is always at a cross road where you only have to choose one Junction at one time!!!!
Happy New Year Everyone!!!
On new Year Eve I went over to my friend's place to watch the Fireworks and also to have dinner with them. Not many of us Total 5 of us but nice Chilling out time.
I have been on Shopping Marathon despite the Sales is going to end.. Manage to Purchase a lot from Dorothy Perkins, and Some from Niichi fashion Design. Thank goodness my cousin and I are on our Uni term Break Before continue back in school.
For now... My New year Resolution is to Achieve good Grades and Hopefully to get scholarship from Big Organization!
Sometimes I wonder....... What it would be if I have gone to UK and Study?? Hmm... anyway life is always at a cross road where you only have to choose one Junction at one time!!!!
Happy New Year Everyone!!!
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