Lost......My Mind...

Being the bubbly girl i use to be but not any moment I see those now. I Created a line from those and is hard to walked through it. When I walk it through the same road again it is rather scary then not. I am not too sure of what is going on to my life exactly at the moment. I am sort of Lost with no direction.

Its been a hard road for my journey and why do the Hell in the world you would love doing something so selfish to someone else life. Is it because I am being nice and good that is what I get. I am never too sure of those. Yes I am devastated and that is also your proud doing wrong.

You enter my world and I follow and just move accordingly. Promises and words you hurt me spiritually. I wonder What on earth i have done to you. I am sitting down here wondering why and how was it my mistake, the answer was no.

You said you did not want to disturb my study life, but you have already cut through deep inside her heart and You said " Love is a Feeling and Never to Break it as it is Painful".

I use to love coming to the University, but you spoiled the entire thing. I do not know what do i owe you. I do not know why you have to do this to me, and also just left me half hanging.

If that makes you happy, That continue to live and destroy people's life.

Continue the Journey.....

Well I have left myself to rod at home for 3 consecutive days with all emotions run up like bucket rush. I cried while listening to music, Going out with cousin brother, sing karaoke, yam cha with my cousins and then become a make up doll for my cousin, went out to Kinokuniya Book Store, and went dinner with sister and cousin.

My life have move again from another level to a higher level where I am sure there will be new challenges ahead of me as i am not sure what. Continue to walk the journey and picking up the bit and pieces that left me much struggle with know what to do? and what he wants and all rubbish connection to it.

Instead of asking what are all the questions and things about him, is time for me to prioritize my self and setting my goals right. Stop by if you think I am right, but please stay away to avoid meddling of friendship instead. PERFECTLY Clear now.

My life is back to normal. I thank the experience i have been through and I see it clearly now of how to handle situation. Is so much excitement when I look at it. I thought it was tough but it is rather smooth sailing now then ever I thought of. In this beginning I have not seen him around. I am stronger than I thought i was never. Smile and cheers.

Something interesting now, Kathrine is bugging me how long more I would like to blog. well To let you know Kat, My blog is a story line in my daily life that I pen down most time. I know you Hate reading. But I love Reading. Kisses...!!!

I have bring myself back up and this time No more Relationship. I hate the feeling of being left Half hanging! it Sucks!!! hahahah!!! I am stronger than Yesterday!!!

Running In Heels..... and a surprise Reaction!

It was the Orientation Night party 2011 in my university. In the beginning was rough. So rough that I nearly give up and stuff. Kumar he purposely gave me a hard time. Well I can see how Professional he claim to be as he mix the personal and work together. Anyway I was thankful enough to have Siva, Shangkar and Raj to help me out with the system entirely. Kumar came in Very much later to just stand and show his face I suppose. With that I thank Him for letting me know and letting me learn how to run an event without you presents. I don't see anything he have done besides Jing's Harmonica Tuning. Though it can be better but is okie it was good enough for them and the Crew is happy!

After all he has done to me, he can even called me to asked my dad for Discount to purchase Camry. Wow Kumar, you really have the Guts to do this but you know Something Krishna Kumar, you have no Balls to even come and tell me you want it to be over.

Over the time I realize FM people are not that difficult to deal with. They are in fact pretty nice people to deal with in handling stuff. I had sort of much feedback, to my analyze, i think Krishna Kumar, you are having some attitude problem and not other people.

I am fine because I am just 23 and there are a long way more to go.Imagine people, a 33 years old guy..... Behaving in this manner.... Yesterday, you look so immature. You saw me paying the parking, you just went running to your car to avoid me. I wonder How long can you do that. How long would you like to avoid things instead of getting things clear. You are so small.... I use to respect you but now I doubt that is coming from me.......

This is the surprise reaction I have. hey Folks More updates i bet... My interesting Life!!

A reality of what is Semester 4

I slept late last night. Although i told myself not to think about it, but somehow it will think about him when he is not even thinking about me. While I force my self to sleep, I finally sleep soundly. I was waken up by a strange dream. I dream about Casket and everywhere I go is all casket and the feeling is like so weird.

This morning I went to school, I told myself is a brand new day, but somehow i felt strange as i will still look out for him. I know i should not.... Is difficult handle the situation. I am not too sure of what it is but definitely i know I had something for him. I know i should go all way out but is like a road block rather looking at it now.

Suffering feeling but i cannot show much out about myself. Sigh!!!!

Sem3 Ending with Drama!! A whole New Beginning in Sem 4

With Grace of God.... Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu... I smoothly went on to Semester 4.

Thinking back when i was in Semester 3, it was all the beginning in life. All this while I thought I have been living a world of a hell lots of shit. But This semester proof me so wrong. Drama in class in like handling the working society people. Finding your own true, trusted and sincere friend is hardest to find.

Sem 3 is one of the most remarkable semester in my uni life. Learning to know what kind of people to deal with. All sort of character and different level of emotion.

From being just me and my friends, I finally thought I found a person right in my life, Different of 10 years, Different Race, well I accepted him for who he is. Till then things went on funny, and I felt weird about everything. Thank you for the beautiful words and treatment. Now being on my own and i am taking charge of anything i do.

Something i should hold on to is my principles. not dating for another year.... hahaha.... I have failed that mission I suppose! Also in Semester 3, my friendship blew up with my best friend. In a week, I lost two of the important thing in my life.

Instead of being devastated I stood up and be strong and I ain't waiting for anyone no more. Time is running out for me and I know i miss out a lot since high school till now. Is time for me to have something nice for myself and do what I love doing. Today where i stand and be is already hard enough to climb the hill. Come if you want to know me. Go far away if you think of not being sincere.

Today I came to a point where i realize, I am the one take charge of my life and How I draw my own life.

Oprah Winfrey: We live our Desirable Life as There is Nothing To Wait!!

To everyone out there you take charge of your life not anyone else. Loves comes a long when you finally find yourself Because then you will find your complete self!!

Cheers Pei Yee.... You are now on your own. Live the fabulousity life that you deserve and Do make your self Proud and your parents.

Flowing Tears.

I have just came back from Malacca today and I had awesome weekend with my Sister there together with mum and dad of cause.

I have been thinking to myself what I am now. Where am I heading to. What does he want from me. Telling me that he will approve me in FB and all stuff are lies. He never did and Wonder will he remember my name someday.

My heart is badly bash up and Once again I was played out badly in a way.

Kind to think about the logic of it is that why he did not allow me in to his office again. As before he gave me a lot and appreciates me more than like before. As to now I am hurt and I just hope time will just recover me with the strength I have.

Tears are swinging
Sways its way down with grief I hold,
Bleeding of pain fill with my heart of Sorrows,
To see you smile makes all the time great with Pride,
you left me with no answer,
You left me of with no words,
Busy times you have I take it like to Swallow,
As the truth remain surface,
As to be it, I know it of the real thing.

Some how I am smiling...

I miss him bad, but I respect it because of his work. He thinks differently and probably I need to understand the stress a little bit.

Being in a situation like this makes me more freedom and good deal. I can do so much more and achieve what I want in life.

His sentence, and his laughter makes me smile the entire day as I am glad I am able to make him smile!!

hahahaha!!! Miss you more each day!!