I had one of the most brilliant time in RWMF 2011. I was assign to Gina's Team for Gate control. Great team mates and Leader to work with.
In this event, I met people from across the globe and I am actually living a life of my dream when i was young. Those time I remembered how much i want to be part of the organizing team as I felt privilege in it.
Most of my dream I have race to achieve it well. It was one of the Best event I had work with. Being there is Sharon make it better and of cause I talk my heart out to her and glad we can be together for all knowing reasons. haha.
By fate I met 2 girls, wonderful girls, Parvin and Harvin because of them I met Shigan. I understand how much fun time I had.
Back in to the reality of the world, many things came to my mind, and i clearly understand what i really want in my life and who i wanted (as in the quality in a guy) I am not certain with the current one as he is so busy with Jobs, and he is lovely now. At least he speaks to me.
B, Nowadays I hate to talk to people you know, but than is me that makes the different... he laugh...!! hahaha!!!
Your laughter makes me smile so much in my heart you tough man! hahaha!!
Like i would say, I will only live my life for myself as I felt this way makes me happier and not to worried about other things that make me confuse. I think I have fallen from the top of the mountain till the lowest end of my life which my parents have totally no idea what their daughter have gone through in her life.
I am dating a guy ten years older than me. Does the race really matters, or her face that she would like to take care of. If ever I hear that from another mouth that person will just get a good luck from me!! I suppose!!! Mind your own business where yours is neither that good nor better than me!
Somehow as i grow up, I just felt that I had sick and tire of the mindset which I do not like those anymore. How many this and that and Chinese.... I am sorry, chinese have to be modern thinking!!!! The guy now I am dating, he is one of the kind... I miss him so much more by him allowing me the freedom!!!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
6 July 2011.. Wednesday!!
I kick-start with Rainforest for this time around of semester break. I have gain many things in semester 3, yet again i lost some of it. Its painful, hurtful, and tearful to my which some people may not even care what i feel and what their action causes the others.
I thought I have let it all away but deep down I hold it tight in my heart. I will be flying to Kuching, Sarawak tomorrow. Without a goodbye and not even a call. It is heartbreaking.
I was speaking to Meryll over facebook, and i just realize what is the 8 years and it is really a long period of time a person to know what is all about. I am not sure how long this heartbreak will take to recover.
I don't even have the mood to go for anything but situation forces me to go. I am not too sure what is going to happen. As far as i know it most likely a positive energy that will be given to me.
If the relationship from the start is rough, what will it takes to makes thing smoother.
I remember your words.
I said this is who I am will you be able to take it. This is what you Said.
I cry easily, you said you will make me laugh
I do have a certain set of Chinese Mind, you said you like chinese mind
I am very clingy, you said you like the way i am and keep it that way
I am modern thinking, you said you like modern way of thinking
You practically convince me to fall for you and you slash my feelings like a piece of toy.
You said you will never raise your voice on me, YES you did....
You fail to keep your promise even from the start. Base on my many years of analysis, you are either messing with the Fire Aries if not you are playing with the most purity things in the world which is Love.
I wonder if your mom knows about what the son did... she will be proud of you. hahaha!!
I somehow miss you, but i would rather blog about it than to call, as I know you are Gaying with your Boss , if not you are busy with your so called JOB.... where all can have rest time but not you!
I thought I have let it all away but deep down I hold it tight in my heart. I will be flying to Kuching, Sarawak tomorrow. Without a goodbye and not even a call. It is heartbreaking.
I was speaking to Meryll over facebook, and i just realize what is the 8 years and it is really a long period of time a person to know what is all about. I am not sure how long this heartbreak will take to recover.
I don't even have the mood to go for anything but situation forces me to go. I am not too sure what is going to happen. As far as i know it most likely a positive energy that will be given to me.
If the relationship from the start is rough, what will it takes to makes thing smoother.
I remember your words.
I said this is who I am will you be able to take it. This is what you Said.
I cry easily, you said you will make me laugh
I do have a certain set of Chinese Mind, you said you like chinese mind
I am very clingy, you said you like the way i am and keep it that way
I am modern thinking, you said you like modern way of thinking
You practically convince me to fall for you and you slash my feelings like a piece of toy.
You said you will never raise your voice on me, YES you did....
You fail to keep your promise even from the start. Base on my many years of analysis, you are either messing with the Fire Aries if not you are playing with the most purity things in the world which is Love.
I wonder if your mom knows about what the son did... she will be proud of you. hahaha!!
I somehow miss you, but i would rather blog about it than to call, as I know you are Gaying with your Boss , if not you are busy with your so called JOB.... where all can have rest time but not you!
Friday, July 1, 2011
A day of no calls or msg.!!
Its been a hard day for me to resist myself from thinking about it. Nevertheless the temptation is there.
I am glad to have a group of cousin and friends that supported me all the way and I would learn to take charge tomorrow.
I had a bunch of friends that wanted happiness for me as they know I am like that. I have finally come to an answer that certain things are not meant to be happen due to certain reason when the time is right.
As for now, I am not sure yet. I need to call Siva tomorrow to know how is things. I will need him to know that if he really want me, he needs to come for me.
Stress up with all the callings and rubbish! Taking charge of my life once again is to hold on to it tight and this time around I hope the Grip is stronger than ever before which I do not wish to let it go. I am who I am and if you fall for me... it would be me and not someone else I pretend to be!
Take charge time. Going to bed Now!! Off to Malacca 3 days!!!
I am glad to have a group of cousin and friends that supported me all the way and I would learn to take charge tomorrow.
I had a bunch of friends that wanted happiness for me as they know I am like that. I have finally come to an answer that certain things are not meant to be happen due to certain reason when the time is right.
As for now, I am not sure yet. I need to call Siva tomorrow to know how is things. I will need him to know that if he really want me, he needs to come for me.
Stress up with all the callings and rubbish! Taking charge of my life once again is to hold on to it tight and this time around I hope the Grip is stronger than ever before which I do not wish to let it go. I am who I am and if you fall for me... it would be me and not someone else I pretend to be!
Take charge time. Going to bed Now!! Off to Malacca 3 days!!!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Someday you will spare your time to read...
There is a lot that i would like yo say in here. I am not too sure when will i get my opportunity to speak to you and to let you know how i feel and involve in your life.
It is no one's fault as to per saying that it takes two hands to clap. I appreciate everything you have done for me and said to me. Being together for almost a month now. I think you would probably forget and well i never aspect anything.
I have a seriously thought about the current situation to myself. I climb a road which is winding and till here I am today. I met you. It was a blessing that I met you and I was pretty impress of how you actually get me.
I do wonder to myself am I just a companion to you or someone precious in your life like you said. I am not clear as I am not too sure. There is so much I would like to speak out, as you were busy with work and bosses.
In my heart the miss I had for you growing each day and disappointment is greater as well. I am not sure how long and how I would do it this time around. I think it over and I seriously think the relationship needed some fixed up by you.
I know I am taking on the risk, and the back fire way but somehow, I talk to my cousins and all my cousins they said the same thing. I have been too nice to everyone and they just take me for a ride.
It is sad that I need to take the decision to move on till you are seriously ready to come back for me. I am 23 and i know what is the best solutions for me. I would appreciate if I have someone just call me up and take me out for a random rounds around the city or just get Starbucks Hot Chocolate and hot Hazel Nut Chocolate and go a round for just a couple of minutes.
If just do not want people to know, when having lunch we could drive out to have something nice and come back. A short 30 minutes outing makes it feel special. It does not have to be fancy or high class.
Kumar, you scribble something in my heart. Like what my bro tells me, if the love is there appreciate and never let it go.
If happens to read my blog, I am more than willing to be your personal assistant, best friend, partners, team mates, and lover.
I don't have to do anything by just watching you, it makes my day. That is how charming you are and when you work with cables and connection of long wires.... you look so so amazing.
Krishna Kumar, you stole my heart.
That does not mean laid back should be counted. Catch it when its there and all i understand guys, if they want something badly, they will go all the way back in there!!!
I am just here.... standing and watching and waiting I suppose.!!!
It is no one's fault as to per saying that it takes two hands to clap. I appreciate everything you have done for me and said to me. Being together for almost a month now. I think you would probably forget and well i never aspect anything.
I have a seriously thought about the current situation to myself. I climb a road which is winding and till here I am today. I met you. It was a blessing that I met you and I was pretty impress of how you actually get me.
I do wonder to myself am I just a companion to you or someone precious in your life like you said. I am not clear as I am not too sure. There is so much I would like to speak out, as you were busy with work and bosses.
In my heart the miss I had for you growing each day and disappointment is greater as well. I am not sure how long and how I would do it this time around. I think it over and I seriously think the relationship needed some fixed up by you.
I know I am taking on the risk, and the back fire way but somehow, I talk to my cousins and all my cousins they said the same thing. I have been too nice to everyone and they just take me for a ride.
It is sad that I need to take the decision to move on till you are seriously ready to come back for me. I am 23 and i know what is the best solutions for me. I would appreciate if I have someone just call me up and take me out for a random rounds around the city or just get Starbucks Hot Chocolate and hot Hazel Nut Chocolate and go a round for just a couple of minutes.
If just do not want people to know, when having lunch we could drive out to have something nice and come back. A short 30 minutes outing makes it feel special. It does not have to be fancy or high class.
Kumar, you scribble something in my heart. Like what my bro tells me, if the love is there appreciate and never let it go.
If happens to read my blog, I am more than willing to be your personal assistant, best friend, partners, team mates, and lover.
I don't have to do anything by just watching you, it makes my day. That is how charming you are and when you work with cables and connection of long wires.... you look so so amazing.
Krishna Kumar, you stole my heart.
That does not mean laid back should be counted. Catch it when its there and all i understand guys, if they want something badly, they will go all the way back in there!!!
I am just here.... standing and watching and waiting I suppose.!!!
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Asian Culture......
Today i have something interesting to share. No offence but is just my perception towards the culture that I am being Classified under without a choice. Asian culture are rich and full of culture and bonding. I would consider a rare one now as the fast emerging to the western practice. It is sad to see it now.
Keeping the sense of origin of the culture and traditions makes me proud of my very own culture.
As to that, towards a certain point i would consider something that does not really make sense to me is that Asians have the mentality of living in the eyes or words of others. Which sometimes I feel so weird about it. I wonder is it my fault, my weirdness of behavior, somehow I came out with a perception that I do not live for the others and I believe not many individual have the same mindset with me.
Feeling weird at times, I do question myself why do i have a western set of knowledge and perception but when it come to tradition I uphold it with pride. It makes me think. Most time when others talk they will always this sentence what do you think other will think about me? is it that so important that sometimes it cause a person to stop pursuing it.
Feeling weird as I am pure breed chinese with Baba Nyonya Descendant, why will i have this kind of mentality.
As to the asian culture they love to mix everything like a mixing bowl salad. In working environment to cabinet or event from school, religion is being mistakenly took as race. it is really sad to see that.
Why religion have to part of the work force, as i remember it is part of life believe that each individual have the right to choose and believe in. As the matter of fact, it have became an issue in work force as to look at it, it is more of peer pressure than the choice of religion one choose and understand.
it would be so nice if they just drop all this and just do their Duties.
Its scare the hell out of me even way before I am out in my industry to work. All the pressure and Respect I think is no longer there.
Keeping the sense of origin of the culture and traditions makes me proud of my very own culture.
As to that, towards a certain point i would consider something that does not really make sense to me is that Asians have the mentality of living in the eyes or words of others. Which sometimes I feel so weird about it. I wonder is it my fault, my weirdness of behavior, somehow I came out with a perception that I do not live for the others and I believe not many individual have the same mindset with me.
Feeling weird at times, I do question myself why do i have a western set of knowledge and perception but when it come to tradition I uphold it with pride. It makes me think. Most time when others talk they will always this sentence what do you think other will think about me? is it that so important that sometimes it cause a person to stop pursuing it.
Feeling weird as I am pure breed chinese with Baba Nyonya Descendant, why will i have this kind of mentality.
As to the asian culture they love to mix everything like a mixing bowl salad. In working environment to cabinet or event from school, religion is being mistakenly took as race. it is really sad to see that.
Why religion have to part of the work force, as i remember it is part of life believe that each individual have the right to choose and believe in. As the matter of fact, it have became an issue in work force as to look at it, it is more of peer pressure than the choice of religion one choose and understand.
it would be so nice if they just drop all this and just do their Duties.
Its scare the hell out of me even way before I am out in my industry to work. All the pressure and Respect I think is no longer there.
Friday, June 10, 2011
I think I am in the walk of Love Again I think!!! Peeps!!
Its been a rollercoaster ride for me recently dealing with event and in the events we have Entertainment and Exhibition.... Way to go girl..... there is so much more... I wonder.. what future holds on my shoulder.
I have been working very closely with Kumar during Events and he was all there to support and guide me through. Time heals the motion and yea I am Happy to be with him. I feel so secure when I am with him!
Its been a one year journey that I left myself to think of what i want and who i want to be as well as for my relationship. To friends that know me I think they know what kind of person I am.
I left myself being on my own is to take my time to understands me and to know be more mature and grown up. Nevertheless not everything my friends or my ex said about me is totally wrong. In a way i do find some common sense answer for it. I grow up so much.
As i am not in a relationship unless he confess and make an official one. hahaha.... I would consider myself dating but not in a relationship as official i suppose. hahahaha............ He got my heart but still i need the official thing as in Traditional way of doing it.....
On the other hand I am currently Seating down smiling to myself when I see My friend is sad as someone just did not online. She is a bit in her ego but I suppose is not really a bad thing I think. Her action makes me laugh as I know what is the root cause for her long sided face. Muahahahaha!!!!
I do miss him when I don't see him. I just wish I can Hug Me!!!!
I have been working very closely with Kumar during Events and he was all there to support and guide me through. Time heals the motion and yea I am Happy to be with him. I feel so secure when I am with him!
Its been a one year journey that I left myself to think of what i want and who i want to be as well as for my relationship. To friends that know me I think they know what kind of person I am.
I left myself being on my own is to take my time to understands me and to know be more mature and grown up. Nevertheless not everything my friends or my ex said about me is totally wrong. In a way i do find some common sense answer for it. I grow up so much.
As i am not in a relationship unless he confess and make an official one. hahaha.... I would consider myself dating but not in a relationship as official i suppose. hahahaha............ He got my heart but still i need the official thing as in Traditional way of doing it.....
On the other hand I am currently Seating down smiling to myself when I see My friend is sad as someone just did not online. She is a bit in her ego but I suppose is not really a bad thing I think. Her action makes me laugh as I know what is the root cause for her long sided face. Muahahahaha!!!!
I do miss him when I don't see him. I just wish I can Hug Me!!!!
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Surprise Party!!! I love Giving and Receiving Surprises!! Thrill!!
Giving surprises somehow makes me happy in a way! I don't know why! I love giving them Surprises and they make me so happy.
Surprise party was plan for Vliamz with the help of his housemate and yasir. his Buddy. We manage to pull it off without a single suspicious from him. Great team!!
Happy Birthday Vee Liam.... Happy that you like the shirt I bought you as a present.
May God Shine you more Glory in your Future and with prayer I wish you all the best in life! Stay happy all the time!!
Mr. Gemini, you are just one of the kind that Can never make me sad for long,.......
Surprise party was plan for Vliamz with the help of his housemate and yasir. his Buddy. We manage to pull it off without a single suspicious from him. Great team!!
Happy Birthday Vee Liam.... Happy that you like the shirt I bought you as a present.
May God Shine you more Glory in your Future and with prayer I wish you all the best in life! Stay happy all the time!!
Mr. Gemini, you are just one of the kind that Can never make me sad for long,.......
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